B: omelet (3 whole eggs, what was I thinking?) with low-fat feta and broccoli and 2 pieces whole wheat toast and COFFEE
S: 1 LC
L: grilled chicken, spinach, roasted tomatoes, 1.5 whole wheat toast, orange herbal tea
S: coffee with skim
D:
TBD.
I am FREAKING out. Was with my mother at surgeon's today and she is having open-heart surgery next week. The surgeon told her she had a few weeks before she'd go into total heart failure. I'm still negotiating with her about when she is having surgery because she wants to put it off. When I'm not thinking about her surgery, I'm thinking about every former binge food of mine. Foods I haven't even thought about since December.
I am telling myself: the only thing I can control is what I put into my mouth. If I go and binge, it won't help anything. I am typing this here because it is helping me feel a little bit grounded. Thanks for the opportunity to vent, yet again, on this board.