Today DH was looking through some old pictures that we had on an sd card, and the whole time we were going through them I felt embarrassment about how much I had "let myself go" in the course of four years. I can't stand looking at those old pictures because I feel such shame about how much weight I've gained. I really want to be the person in those pictures again.

I've only recently started adjusting my food intake again, so I'm at the beginning of the journey here. I AM making changes and I WILL stay on plan - it's just depressing to see how easy it was to pack on the pounds.

why are you embarassed? you should be proud of where you started and where you are now, and excited to get to your end goal! it is a journey- "you are never too old, never too sick, to start from scratch once again"

good for you!

i feel ya sister, i have sooo many pictures of myself looking good but i never let anyone take pictures of me when im super fat. (a few have been snapped here and there). when i compare them to each other it just makes me wanna cry.

we'll get back there though. definitely. and we'll appreciate it even more!

Hi Krissy, I am sorry you felt sad looking at the photos. I feel the same way! Another way to look at it is to let the photos be more motivation to lose the weight. It's great you are making positive choices now, way to go! We're here to support you.

Take care,

Amy

I feel where you're coming from.. but at the same time I look at them hopefully.. something along the lines of: "Damn, I looked good.. if only I'd had some fashion sense and known how to fix my hair. And now I do!"

Well, maybe not fashion sense. But better than when I was in college! Anyway, it gives me hope I'll look pretty darn good in ~35 pounds.

I can relate! My DH and I got married in 2006, I was in the 140s, within a year I was in the 190s. 2 kids later I was sitting in the 220s months after my most recent baby came. It made me feel terrible! I don't like seeing those pictures at all!!! I'm hoping as time goes on I will be able to enjoy the memories of the pictures rather than focusing on how much I weighed at the time.

Although, what I can say is, it is less painful to see the fat pictures now that I am much smaller rather than seeing my more thin pictures when I was much much heavier. If that makes sense.

I hate the way that I look in old pictures but I absolutely LOVE that I look different now. For that reason, I enjoy looking at old photos.

Try and focus on the positives - that you are losing weight and doing something about it. Don't be ashamed of your former self, be proud that your former self decided to make a change and do something for you!

Hey, it's why we're all here. Important thing, you've started to get back to where you were! Put one of those photos on the fridge, or some place you can see it often.

Krissy, just read your other post about having a new son! Cut yourself some slack, girl, he's only 3 months old, and you're breastfeeding to boot! Bet you don't get much sleep. Anyway, one day at a time, sounds like you're already off to a good start! Congrats again.

Missy Krissy--probably like you, I was at my thinnest for my wedding. I bought a dress on our honeymoon in Hawaii. There's a photo of me in it our last night there. The dress has been in the attic since then. Then, this Labor Day Weekend, I was finally able to wear it again! If it happened for me, it can happen for you too!

I totally relate. Seeing what I look like in pictures haunts me.

Thanks all for the encouragement! And Lockitup, it completely makes sense when you say that it is less painful for you to see heavier pics now that you're slimmer. I'm taking things one day at a time, and it really helps to read everyone's story here at 3FC.