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Originally Posted by juliastl27
thats amazing! wow, you've really come far since then.
35,000? i cant even imagine what id do with that many calories.. does sound kinda fun to try though, haha.
Fun in theory, miserable in practice, because even though I never got close to 35,000 calories, the third to half that I did manage was pretty miserable.
My cue to stop eating wasn't hunger ending, it was pain beginning. And even though I'd quit when the pain started, I was usually in for more severe pain later.
I can't tell you how many times I felt so miserable after a meal that I'd feel that I probably should go to the emergency room, but I was just too embarassed to admit that I'd eaten myself sick.
I haven't eaten to the point of pain in probably ten to fifteen years (though to think that most of my life I did so AT LEAST once a week, it's pretty scary), but the potential is always there and I have to remember that.
It's not just grossly obese folks who can eat like this either. There are normal weight and even thin folk who can binge this way. I've always wondered about the tiny, asian "competitive eaters" like Sonya Thomas who weighs 105 lbs. In the hot dog challenge she won, she ate 40 hotdogs which would be around 12,000 calories.
http://www.ifoce.com/rankings.php?action=detail&sn=20
I know the competitive eaters don't eat like this every day (though many "train" by eating grapes and other high-volume lower calorie foods to keep their stomaches elastic enough to hold the crazy amounts of food).
I don't follow competitive eating, but when I see it on tv accidentally, I end up watching it like a train wrek (or Maury Povich show). Ironically most of the asian competitive eaters are very tiny, and the Amercans are often hugely fat, and I wonder whether they eat differently when they're not competing, or whether the asian competitors just have insanely high metabolisms. It's also ironic that it's usually the tiny asians who win the competitions.
I think "aren't they hungry all the time, with their stomachs so stretched out?"
And when I catch myself thinking "how can they do that to themselves," I have to remind myself that I did that to myself voluntarily (and no prizes were involved).
What's crazy isn't that I got to nearly 400 lbs, it's how I didn't get bigger. And that I now have found the key to controlling hunger, and my metabolism has tanked to the point that the calorie level it takes to maintain my weight is the calorie level I would routinely lose 6 - 8 lbs per week on consistently (not just the first week).
My appetite has decreased to fraction of what it was, unfortunately my metabolism has decreased even more than the hunger.
In a way it's funny, and I can even appreciate the humor most of the time (I've always had a dark, gallows sense of humor, even and perhaps especially when I'm the victim).
When the choice is laugh or cry, you might as well laugh.