I havent binged like that in about 8 months. It was only ONE day - thank goodness - I was able to pull myself out of it and get back on track Tuesday. Tuesday morning the scale was 189. This morning I weighed at 184. My gut is feeling better, indigestion is fading and the scale is leveling out.

I'm trying to identify WHY I felt the need to binge like that. The facts are that this weekend I had 2 major life changing events: BF proposed and I had a birthday. Mothers day too, but I don't consider that a major life altering event

I am grateful that this binge didn't thrust me into depression or an extended days/weeks/month long binge. I realize there will be times that I will overeat, but I'm trying to figure out if there will always be times - for the rest of my life - that I will binge? Or am I living in denial thinking that its possible to NEVER binge again?

That said: Here's to being accountable

hmm, I don't know about you but if my bf proposed to me, that might set off a binge. This is my reasoning. I have been with him x amount of time. In that time frame, he didn't propose, now he has. What changed? (Change and fear of change, sets off binges in some people). Did he propose because I am losing weight? Does that mean he wasn't going to propose unless I lost weight (I actually would think that).

Mother's Day. Simply, issues with mom, or with being a mom, or NOT being a mom.

Maybe the proposal made you want to see him at your TRUE nature to detect if he really would take you for face value.

Just dig deep. It is a coping mechanism. What are you trying to cope with?

Congratulations on the proposal by the way!

Congratulations on getting engaged! Mother's day for me makes me feel like I'm entilted to take a day and eat what I want. Always a downfall for me. Either way, congratulations, get back on plan and move forward. Be careful for stress of wedding planning.