So here i am trying to resist stuffing food in my mouth, tears rolling down my cheeks. I cant even comfort myself i just want to eat anything and everything.

I had a really healthy dinner (sausage casserole with loads of veg) and since then ive just wanted to eat and eat and eat. So far i have managed not to but i dont know if i can keep it up. Im telling myself no because i dont think its real hunger. Ive been Struggling since the 1st of the month feeling like i want to eat ALL the time but making sure i stick to my plan.

Not really looking for advice i dont think unless someone can tell me how to get through this easier (tried distraction techniques already) just really wanted to get this out.

what about just leaving the house?

once you're past this crisis, you might want to look into your views regarding food-as-reward and food-as-punishment. a good part of the time, it's these attitudes that mess us up - you had a healthy dinner, so "good girl! you get dessert!" and seeing yourself as being deprived of food is "bad girl - to bed with no dinner for you!". it can do a real number on the brainbox.

its 10pm here so going out is a no no.
I dont think im using food as a reward/punishment, i just dont want to eat because i dont think its real hunger. i just want to eat junk. a day or two i can handle but its been 10 days now of telling myself i dont need to stuff food, any food in my mouth and to stick to my meals and snacks i have planned for my 1500 calorie allowance.

starting to feel like im losing the plot and can feel a massive binge coming.

Here's the thing, if you're anything like me, you used food to avoid feeling. Ah the beloved food coma that takes it all away; except it doesn't. The fastest way through **** is straight through... and honestly once we start FEELING, then the world opens up. It's an amazing thing. Not always easy, but amazing as, for me at least, it's totally improved my quality of life.

Just last week I had a setback, but only my second since August so I see that as a great success really. But look at you! You're working through it! Good for you!

All the food i eat is "healthy" and i allow the occasional treat (today i had a small piece of chocolate cake for 210 calories) as im a calorie counter and nothing is banned. All i can think of is things like dohnuts, bread with butter, crisps, chocolate, icecream etc. There is plenty of fruit etc in the kitchen and i dont want them which is telling me it isnt real hunger at all.

do you have any hot tea or low-fat hot cocoa? i find that stuff to be pretty filling (especially the cocoa, but i wouldn't want it to trigger you).

otherwise, take a shower, brush your teeth. if its almost 10 it sounds like its almost bedtime anyhow. you'll feel so accomplished once this is over and you stayed strong. this too shall pass!

Fyre, i think i did/do use food to avoid feeling. Everything seems better with cake.

Currently splitting up with my bf of 8 and a half years and trying to find somewhere else to live so tough times at the moment.

that's why i keep a massive number of flavoured teas all around the house - when i get the noshies, i brew up a cup.

another thing that really helps is 1oz of the highest-quality 70% or darker chocolate i can find. i eat it as slowly as possible - i prefer the kind with orange or chili bec honestly, i can't stand the stuff but it really does cut cravings short.

would it, by any chance, happen to be pms time? if it's pms, then yes - you're going to be hungrier than usual and you will be craving - the magnesium in the chocolate as well as the endorphin production helps short-circuit even those.

ETA - we posted at the same time - and yeah - that's a really tough time in your life, no question.

yeah when i go to bed it will be over for tonight but with it already being 10 days i have it in my head that it will continue tomorrow, which probably means it will because its in my head.

Good idea though Val, ill have a hot chocolate for 40 calories see if that helps any. If nothing else it will help me sleep i think which has also been hard lately (since January ive hardly slept more than 4 hours a night broken sleep). Im exhausted really. Maybe thats why im craving fatty, carb heavy stuff i dunno.

Really honestly feel like im going mad.

chart your course, put your head down, face into the wind, and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

bad times pass - they always do - and you'll be in calmer waters before you know it.

Sounds like your cravings are being triggered by stress. You might have to delve deep into what's bothering you, and find a distraction/other form of release like crying or cardio.

Or your cravings are being triggered by the chocolate cake. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with treats, but I know whenever I eat anything made with flour (or worse, the dreaded flour/sugar combo) it makes me crave ALL THE CARBS.

If you want to eat so bad that you are crying, just eat something that will make you full without cheating on your diet too much... like plain popcorn ? But hey, if you have a lot of underlying issues, you should definetly try to solve them. :/

The last time I had to have sugar, I ended up with strawberries, and then had to do the walk of shame to my computer and enter in the calories. How excited was I to see the damage was minimal? So, like others suggested, go for the healthy stuff..... but if you're like me, sometimes fruit doesn't cut it when you really want junk.

I understand cravings can come along randomly and can be worse, at times, than at the very beginning. Keep going girl, keep resisting! Really, caving it won't make you feel better in the end, which you know already or you would have caved! Look at me.... I gave in to the desire and I'm now re-losing 10 pounds. It's just not worth it for a Ding-Dong.

You can do it!

Hugs - hope today is a better day for you! Sounds like a lot of stress, which definitely can trigger eating - especially in those of us for whom eating is an emotional outlet (like most of us here on 3FC). You can do it!! Also , since you had said going out was a no-no that late at night, I am assuming that the stuff you wanted to binge on was at your house already? Perhaps start by giving it away, throwing it out, whatever you need to do to get rid of it. Let us know how you're doing, we're here to help!!