Yesterday was my baby sisters 18th birthday. She wanted all the family (like 20 of us) to go out to eat at the Mexican Restaurant. I knew I was pushing the envelope a bit but I thought I could handle it, afterall I did okay when we went to pizza hut.
I FAILED
It started with a 16oz lime margarita. Normally I get a Jumbo and catch a slight buzz. But for some reason, this one hit me really hard. I was drunk. I didnt just have a buzz. After that I didnt care anymore. I ordered my usual. Tilapia fish filet (cooked in oil I am sure) comes with 4 breaded shrimp (also cooked in oil) side of rice and beans and 2 flour tortillas.
I ate all the fish, only 2 shrimp, only 2 tortillas, and probably 2 scoops of each beans and rice on each tortilla.
I am terrified to weight myself today. I dont think I am going to. I feel really bad about it, and very guilty. I am trying not to beat myself up about it, but I was doing so good. Normally when this happens I give up and quit. I am struggling to make sure I dont do that this time.
I was so tired last night I went to bed at 10. I woke up at 3am my whole body hurt. My hips and back were the worst, but my arms and legs were terribly achy as well. I drank a bottle of water and took some excedrin and didnt fall back asleep till 5. No idea if the pain had something to do with my giving into all that food or not, but I dont generally wake up in excessive amounts of pain.
I just wanted to share, because I told myself no matter what I would hold myself accountable. Just need a little support...



