I'm not sure if this goes here but since anxiety goes with depression and my anxiety has turned into insomnia(which I HATE I want my panic attacks back so I can just freak out and then sleep not not sleep lol)
I keep telling myself if I eat better, lose this weight and exercise regularly that my sleep cycle will be normal. (I hope this is true, I also tell myself that once I lose it and start eating veggies and fish all the time that my skin will clear up and such.)
It makes sense since when you lose or gain weight your body chemistry changes. Plus I know my skin is being stretched beyond it's limit by all the tiger stripes that keep screaming "I'M GONNA BURST!" Another thing I am worried about it lose skin. Terrified of it. See My thighs, are well, sacks of blubber like if you took a balloon and filled it with cottage cheese and a chicken bone to the point where it almost burst like a popped zit you'd have my legs. I mean these things are scary. Every since I was a teen and began eating like I do and sitting on my *** it's been this way. I want normal thighs you know the firm kind.
I see other fat girls, young firm, clear skin, and these girls are wicked beautiful! Course they all hate themselves because they're chubby but what they don't realize is how pretty they freakin are! I'm serious! I mean dang! I got acne AND wrinkles man! What kind of deal is that? For real! Isn't one supposed to disappear before the other comes about?
Anyways, that's my rant on ..everything. Kind of out of place but um yea...



