A little background about me, I was always the skinny girl, most of the time too skinny and would eat junk trying to gain weight. I had my first baby at 18 and sure enough within a month I was back to my skinny 120 lbs. I had my second baby a year and a half ago and this time I cannot even get below my pregnancy weight. It is awkward because I do not even know how to dress to suit my body and cannot afford to get a whole new wardrobe. I am always stressed, broke and strapped for time so losing weight has been impossible. I am now 170 and have pondered everything in moments of weakness because I want my old confident self back. i am still somewhat confident but my personality has changed substantially to being more reserved about my looks. It sounds so conceited but I come from a family of people that will tell me flat out I am a bigger girl now, I would do the same to them so don't feel bad but it just adds to my irritation with my body. If any one has advice on where to start I would very much appreciate it. I have 40 lbs to lose and don't know where to start!!



