My boyfriend and I very happily go over to my mums for dinner every Sunday. It's been like this since I moved out over a year and a half ago, since my mum wasn't ready for me to leave it gives us a chance to stay connected. When I started eating healthy and working out she was all for making healthy options for us! She would make up chicken and salad's and have lots of veggies around for us to munch on. Lately, its been rather unhealthy dinners on Sunday's. We still go over and eat, just much less then usual and fill up on our healthy fruits and veggies before we go over to avoid being ravenous and consuming our weight in food. It was never a big deal, she wasn't trying to sabotage us but she did not want to have to make up a separate dinner since her and her boyfriend are extremely unhealthy eaters.
Yesterday however, dinner took a turn for the worst. We went over to find a cheese baked pasta dish, so my boyfriend and I had a little bit and tried to get the pasta with the least amount of cheese on it. Since TOM is due my self-control and willingness to deprive myself is at a current low, We both went for seconds. Later that evening after having that and a cookie for desert my mum asked me to help her with her computer. I opened it to find a recipe for the pasta sauce, its serving was 177ml - 983 calories. Just the sauce. My jaw dropped.
What did I just do to myself! She went on to tell me she knew it was that bad but didn't want to tell me because she knew I wouldn't eat it. Of course I wouldn't, that's an insane amount of calories! I'm not even sure how you fit that many calories into one sauce...
Anyway, I went home feeling a little sabotaged. I know its my responsibility to know what I am putting into my body, and no one sat there and force fed me but she couldn't have made something slightly healthier? I am resigned to the fact that I did it to myself, and climbed onto my treadmill for an hour after I got home from her place. Probably didn't even burn 1/4 of what I ate, but at least I tried right?
Feeling gross today, extremely sore stomach, bloated. I can't believe I used to eat this way all the time! Anyway, that's my whine for the day, Thanks for listening 3FC!


