Hi everyone,
I am glad I found this site. I am the 35 year old mother to three. My daughter is 11 and my boys are 6. I have been overweight since I was 9 yrs old. My mom constantly told me I was fat and needed to lose weight. The irony of it was..SHE HAD THE SAME PROBLEM!!! My addiction to food began when I was 7 and I was being molested. This continued for 3 yrs because I was scared to tell my parents. If my mom fussed about my weight or an "incident" occured...food was my fix.
Fast fwd to 2003. I had RNY gastric bypass. At my 6 month checkup I found out I had lost 145 pounds but I was also pregnant. A couple of weeks later we found out it was triplets. One of them stop developing but 8 months later I gave birth to my HANDSOME baby boys. But because I was only 6 months post op and carrying twins my drs were making me eat more often to keep us all nurished. I gained 20 pounds while pregnant and never lost it.
Late night bottles=a late night snack for me. When my boys were two one of them was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. We no longer have late night bottles but we do have "all nighters" where I have to check blood sugar as often as every hour. This again = all night snacking for me.
I had gained back 50 pounds of the 145 as of 2009. In 2010 I began having major back issues. Within 6 months I went from perfectly capible of walking to almost wheel chair/bed bound. The weight quickly began stacking on due to lack of exerise, depression and over eating. In Aug of 2010 I had a a microdiscectomy. It helped NONE at all so in Dec 2010 I had a fusion. It was a LONG recovery which didn't allow exercise other than Physical therepy. I am now 13 months post op and I am back 80%. I have arthritis VERY bad in my back and I am hoping to be cleared at my appt in 2 days to have injections because NOTHING else is working.
I have tried MANY diets but I have NO willpower. I also eat out of boredom, nerves, depression, anxiety....you name it....food makes it better. I know that unless I work through my problems I will never be successful.
So today I am starting to live life. I am working on myself from the inside out. One of my big problems is sodas. I cut down to 1 glass/can a day two weeks ago and lost 7 pounds just from the soda/fluid. I also began to cut back on my snacking. I would eat sunflower seeds and it helped though I know the salt is not good. Today I am starting to really watch what I am eating. I am starting out at 308. My first goal is to be under 300. The thought of that is easier to swallow than the big goal of being under 200. Preferrably 150......
