So I'm sitting at work after climbing the stairs...and I'm winded. Now I used to walk an hour a day sometimes twice a day. I had lost almost 80lbs. I looked great I felt great. Then I got lazy and hovered at a halfassed pace for a year. Ya I worked out but not as often and not as hard. My eating habbits suffered. Then in the fall I completely reverted to my old ways of junky takeout and no exercise. Today I struggled into a sweat trying to get my jeans on. My belly hurt as I Ben to get my shoes on. And now I sit winded after on flight of stairs.

Shame on me. I have Put on 20 of the 80 lbs I had lost and lost most of the muscle I so proudly built. I look and feel like crap.

I have a new amazing job working as a resident councilor at an adult residential center for the differently abled. I cant afore to be in such bad shape now. Things are going well at home. I need to get back what I have lost. Or rather loose what I have gained lol.

Since last time this place was such a great help to me I figured I'd sneak back in, tail between my chubby legs and start again. Finishing what I started.

Nah. Your priorities shifted for a while and you lost the thread of your weight loss process - but that's not cause for shame. It's not a moral failing, or a crime you have to do time for. It's something that has happened to almost everyone here. Don't feel shame, and don't tsk yourself.

Instead, be proud that you are nipping it in the bud before all 80 pounds are back and you have that much of a steeper trail to climb!

You can do it - you've done it before and you can do it again. You can and should think about why you lost the thread and maybe plan ahead with ways to keep it from happening again - but no shame, and no scolding yourself!

Welcome back!

I agree wholeheartedly with Carter... there's no place for shame!

In fact, I think the whole process of feeling shame/guilt for anything over one second is evil, and is a large part of why people get fat in the first place. So there.

Be strong in the knowledge that the fastest way to get from Point A to Point B is not always a straight line.

Congrats on your new your new job! This new job sounds like it fits right in with your priorities, and validates your desire to get back to eating healthily and exercising.

Sixty pounds lost? That's amazing, and lots to be proud of... go you!

I think you have much more to celebrate about yourself than to be ashamed for.

You know you can do it, it's just a case of lacing up those shoes and hitting the bricks. I hate it so much LOL I wish I loved it like so many do, but I don't. I hate to sweat. I hate to get all worked up hhaha but I know I have to. So now I schedule it, just like anything else. It goes in my phone, on my tablet, on the computer, in my planner anywhere and everywhere LOL I can't escape it! and WORSE still, is that I have a workout buddy who's losing weight, and if I'm not there to support her she won't do it. So I show up, mainly for her because I'd NEVER let a friend down (letting ourselves down is SO much easier).

It can be done my dear, wish we could do it for you but you know we can't

Boy, you sure a hard on yourself. You deserve a lot of credit. I can't tell you how many times I've gained ALL of my weight back....but you know what? That's also nothing to be ashamed of. We do the best we can when we can. You've come here. That's a very good step to take. You are also coming from a place of experience. You know what it takes and you know how GOOD you'll feel once you start putting one foot in front of the other....so you really have a lot going for you...not to mention the very rewarding job! Wow! You've faced the scale, and that's another good step. Make a commitment to get started. Back on that wagon. Back to doing what you know you've done before. Don't dwell on the past....just see if you can learn from it and keep your eyes on your goal. And...for goodness sake! Be nice to yourself.