So...once again, another year is closing and, I get to reflect in horror that I am somehow (again) heavier than I was this time last year. I remember last year around December 30 thinking, this is the year I'll get skinny! And of course I made these ridiculous new years resolutions that were kept for, like a week. But this year I want to be different. This year I want to succeed. So I've started planning like a mad-woman.
I'm 23 years old, 5'10, and as of today 222 pounds. I've decided January 1st to hit the weight loss hard, since it's a nice date to begin a goal with. I'm kinda hoping that maybe I can get a head start on that goal in the next few days, though!
I guess, I wonder, how do you keep yourself accountable to your weightloss goals? I think that is my biggest problem. I feel like I need to be vocal with my goals. I think in the past, I haven't wanted people to know I am trying to lose weight, because I don't want to be viewed as a woman who is uncomfortable with my body. I've decided to begin using the loseit! app again, which I really like and has been helpful in the past, and maybe connecting it with facebook. I also thought about maybe doing something we're I take a picture of myself once a week. In the past, only I knew I was losing weight, and only I knew when I jumped off the bandwagon.
I've also thought about doing a reward system with myself. For 5 pounds lost: 15 dollars to itunes etc ...50 lbs: A lovely pair of jeans.
I have a gym membership that I got last year, and silly me, haven't used. So hopefully I can bring myself to use it, since I'm in a contract until June, and it's burning 45 dollars an month not using it. But I find that I'm scared of going to they gym. It's such a foreign concept to me! how do you get over gym fear?
Ultimately, I just want to be healthy, or healthier. Of course, I want to look awesome, but really I just want to be healthy. Currently I have a BMI of 31.9 putting me in that scary Obese category. I would be thrilled just to be "overweight!"
To have a normal BMI I would need to be around 170 pounds. . . so that's my ultimate goal. But I think it would be easier to make small goals for myself. Like losing 5 pounds a month.
Am I over thinking this? I don't want to fail again!


