When I went to see my doctor the last time (in July) I had lost 25 pounds (I was at around....177? 180? Something like that, anyway). She measured my waist-to-hip ratio (it was *just* above what it should be) and calculated my BMI, and told me that my "healthy" weight would be around 125 pounds for my height (5 feet.) That seemed pretty okay to me; it's at the high end of the healthy weight range that WW uses.
Now, though, I've lost 52 pounds; I'm down to 151 pounds. And...I don't know. I look in the mirror and I'm like...if I lose another 26 pounds, what in the **** am I going to look like? At this point, I might weigh 151, but I only *look* like I weigh about 130. So at 125, what the **** will I look like?
And I feel fine at this weight. I really do. I like the way I look. I like the way my clothes fit. Yes, I still have some toning up to do, but I just cannot imagine losing another 26 pounds and still liking the way I look.
Plus, I also think to myself: okay, yes. I *might* be able to lose the remaining 26 pounds, but if I can't *maintain* it, what's the point? Right now I am struggling to lose every single ounce. I'm not finding this as livable as I used to.
I never thought I'd say this, but: I think I'm okay with being 20+ pounds overweight. Because I'm beginning to realize that this BMI thing is, in some ways, a total pile of crap. Yes, I might weigh 150 pounds, but I also have high bone density and some pretty decent muscle mass. I've lost 50 pounds, and that's a huge accomplishment. And I've also come to realize that "weighing 125 pounds" is just something that *sounded* good...but definitely not something I can maintain.
My only issue is that I don't know if my doctor will agree. She hasn't seen me since July, and I've lost an additional 25 pounds since then. She might take one look at me and say, "Yeah, that's enough, taking everything into consideration, you're at a healthy weight now." But she could just as likely say, "No, you're 5 feet tall, 150 pounds is still way too much, and you need to lose at least another 20 pounds." If she says that....well, I'm screwed, aren't I? I can't change my goal weight to something out of the healthy weight range if I don't have a note from her, right?
Gah. I just hope she sees my side of things, because I really can't see myself losing another 25 pounds (at least, not without starting to lose muscle, because there's not much more fat there to lose.)
Has anyone else ever found themselves in my situation?

