I need to stop eating tonight.
Oh My God guys.. I'm trying everything. Why am I doing this to myself. I know what I'm going to feel tomorrow. I'm going to be incredibly sad, down, bloated, mentally exhausted. I KNOW this. Why am I doing this?? Things are going so well in my life.
I'm going out with a GREAT guy tomorrow night, and I'm now wishing it wasn't tomorrow..since I know how bad I'll feel about myself.

Why do I hurt myself like this? No one is making me feel bad about myself except for me, doing this, hurting myself.

I'm sorry for this. I feel so frantic, so hazy, all a blur.

I REALLY feel for you. I know exactly how it is. I know that this is something that is SO hard. Sometimes, it can help to get yourself away from the food. Could you go somewhere? Sometimes, if I really can't stop a binge, it helps me to take just 1 or 2 things to my room and close the door. Then, I'm less likely to keep running to the fridge or cupboards. I won't suggest that you organize your closets or call a friend, although maybe you could? I just want to send you strength and self love.

I think a lot of us feel, or have felt the same way. I don't have an answer. It's probably different for everyone. Just don't give up.

This was me tonight. I ate, felt bad, then ate some more. Nothing was wrong, I just couldn't stop thinking about the desserts a family member had just made. And then it all plummeted from there. It sucks

Sounds like anxiety, which is what makes me feel so out of control and frenzied, eating then is like the calming thing I do.

It helps me to find certain things to do to calm myself in other ways first. Instead of replacing eating by doing something else, make it a habit to relax without all the head chatter about "not" eating. A cup of hot tea, a hot scented bubble bath, a walk. Simple things that actually help relax you and puts a pause between you and the food. For me, it works. Most of the time I find I am no longer interested in eating because I took care of my real need that had nothing to do with hunger.

I know exactly how you feel, and have been there countless times. I am currently on day 2 after starting over a million times. It's ridiculolus. Just know that we are all here to support you!