Coming out of the "Shame" closet

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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-18-2011 11:36 PM
    So it's been a few months since I have come online, and I'm a bit ashamed by it.

    Wow, it's almost been about four months ago I was running every night and had got down to 180, which is my "Stuck place" of weight. I've never been able to really break past it.

    I have recently started back up in college, and also have a job at the gym there. Now, I haven't been as good at actually going to the gym for anything but work but I plan to change that.

    I've been working recently with small steps, and am finally ready to admit that I need to start over, and push through it this time. I purchased one of those bodybugg systems, and am going to start it up tomorrow. I realize that just having it won't make the weight come off, but the reality of actually having to see how many calories go in and how many burn off is going to be really good for me. Charts make everything official in my head.

    So now, I am removing myself from my closet of shame, and am stepping out on a six month journey to reach my goal weight. I will be posting in this thread once a week about my highs and lows, and the progress I'm making.

    Any encouragement, words of advice, people in similar situations.. please feel free to strike up a conversation with me and make progress towards a happy, healthy lifestyle.

    10/25: 206.6lbs
    11/1: 207.4lbs
    11/9: 207lbs

    Went on a cruise, lost my bodybugg on said cruise.

    11/22: 211lbs...
    11/29: 210lbs
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    Kristen81985's AvatarKristen81985 , 10-18-2011 11:43 PM
    Good luck to you!! I'll be sure to read your updates! Keep your head clear and focused and you can do it. I know if it were me, it really helps if I know someone is cheering me on. So here I am, your cheerleader.
    Kristen
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-18-2011 11:53 PM
    It does help a ton, and I really appreciate your willingness to come forward and do that for me! I know I can do it, just need to remember what I want in the long term of things.
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    Kahokkuri's AvatarKahokkuri , 10-18-2011 11:53 PM
    Recognizing you need to help yourself is the first important step. Good luck along the way!
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-18-2011 11:58 PM
    Thanks!
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    Baicane's AvatarBaicane , 10-19-2011 03:23 PM
    At least you are hopping back on the wagon! If you did it once, you can do it again. Good luck!
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-19-2011 07:52 PM
    I'm hoping so! Thanks!
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    Snowfeather's AvatarSnowfeather , 10-19-2011 08:43 PM
    Good luck!
    I have to start all over again, too. I lost some weight, and gained almost all of it back
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    mzKiki's AvatarmzKiki , 10-19-2011 08:52 PM
    Hey, it happens! Most of us have yo yo'd at one point or another. Don't be ashamed. Just use your past success as your motivation and hold onto this feeling so that the next time you feel like falling back on bad habits you remember how you felt and where you want to be ultimately.
    You'll love the bodybugg. I bought one in August and it stopped working, but it was great!
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-25-2011 02:37 AM
    First weekly weigh in tomorrow (technically later today I guess.) since "Starting over". I'm feeling a bit nervous. I know everything I've taken into my body this past week, but my anxiety is still running high since some (a lot) of it I could have done without. I still feel like I did well though for just getting started. Here's hoping!

    Also, thanks for the kind words. I really appreciate them and I hope to stay motivated!

    @mzKiki - That stinks that yours stopped working! I'm really liking mine. It's been a big eye opener for how much I really do (And don't) move around!
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    Kristen81985's AvatarKristen81985 , 10-25-2011 02:47 AM
    The first week is hard! You have to start somewhere. looking forward to seeing your 1st weeks results
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-25-2011 07:40 PM
    Weighed in today, and unfortunately...
    I gained 1.6lbs.
    I'm rather disappointed, but I keep telling myself that it's just water weight from my muscles not being used to the sudden working out or harder workouts. I also know that I'm going to keep pushing towards my goal and hopefully next week will have a good, negative number.
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    Kristen81985's AvatarKristen81985 , 10-26-2011 01:27 AM
    Don't sweat it, the same thing happened to me. You can lose that 1.6 pounds and some by next week.
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-26-2011 01:42 AM
    That's what I'm hoping! Starting fresh since it's a new day/week.
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    Rainy's AvatarRainy , 10-27-2011 04:18 PM
    May I just start by saying "Ugh"?

    I haven't even made it all the way through week two, and it isn't looking like this week will be any better. I'm having a really hard time with logging the food I'm eating, and I'm slipping on my exercise.. I'm averaging about 2,500 calories burned total at the end of the day, but that's completely thrown off because of how much or how often I'm eating.

    I seem to not be able to do anything without thinking about food now, and then I get hungry. I don't know why I'm eating. I feel like I'm hungry, but then it's like "But I just ate.." I'm starting to get rather frustrated.
    I'm so angry with myself, and yet I still can't seem to push myself onto the right path and I feel as though it's spiraling out of control.
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