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everyone and
to October!
Credit: I did increase my steps to over 5000 (one day 6400) and did 3 days in a row of 4-10 minute sessions on the treadmill walking from 1.7 mph-2.0 mph.
Credit myself with being honest and humble enough to say I have more to learn about putting into practice the Beck skills and strategies.
Credit: I made a re-commitment for the next 3 months (see details below)to
set a precedence for me of not eating my way through the upcoming holidays and to lose 25 lbs besides.
It was a "tough" past five days. I had one restaurant meal per day from Monday-Friday with all the added sodium followed by last night having 1/2 dozen chocolate chip cookies. I weigh myself every day so I changed my ticker to reflect the "ouch-ness" of following through on eating all of those densely caloric meals and subsequent fall-out from them. I discussed this with my DH since he is my willing "partner in crime" and I made a vow to eat out only once a week moving forward. (this is going to be sooooo hard)
I re-injured an old "anterior ligament" tear in my left knee(from years past) on Thursday when I really cranked the treadmill and was practically running to industrial-techno music (that hard driving pulse just made me want to race-those blasted endorphines). Problem is I don't have the body built for that.
I awoke early Friday morning in intense pain, took some pain meds) and hobbled around here all day yesterday with my cane. I could barely put weight on my left leg at all. That explains why I was the last one to post for the end of September.
Tazzy (when you pop on again) I am going to PM you what I wrote about calorie counting and pedometers since it was "long and winded" like I usually am.
Today, the knee is better. Tomorrow, if it is even better, I walk.
maryann for your sobriety of so many years!! As a recovering food addict, compulsiver overspender and codependent (I call my tri-core addiction) I know how far you have come for that to be a "reality". I could gush for hours here but "I hear ya, I know ya"and just plain
WOW!!!
I am going to share the post I wrote earlier on my BLC group verbatim:
**From this day forward I am re-commiting to "get rid of my fat head".**
What does that mean?? It means that not only is there life after dieting but there will be a life of maintaining being a "goal weight, an end weight or normal weight"; whichever term you prefer. I am fortunate that I also belong to a group on another site where there are three-four people who are presently "maintaining" their weight loses-anywhere from 70-100 lbs. One man has maintained his weight lose of 81 lbs for 6 years. I want to be where they are at!! How about you?? How badly do you want to be at your "goal weight, end weight, normal weight?" What are you willing to do to get there? Here's one more quote but an important one.
"If you fail to plan, then we plan to fail."
Every year in the past including last year I have allowed myself to believe that during the holidays it was "open season": to eat foods not on a healthy food plan, to not exercise, to not drink water, to not get a decent night's sleep, to not practice what I usually try to do so I will succeed at [losing weight
for good]. I have had the mis-belief that I "deserved time off for good behavior". As if I were a sailor docking from a long journey at sea and I was allowing myself a three month pass to "party hard".
Is this resonating with any one else here?
Well, NO MORE!! My "Personal Challenge" to Pam (although anyone who wants to do this "unofficially" can be my guest) is:
From October 1-January 1:
I am going to:
1)stay within my recommended calorie range
2)drink at least 8 cups of H20 each day
3)move, move, (burn 200 cal per day per BLC recommendation)
4)no empty calories!---that includes Halloween candy, desserts at Thanksgiving dinners, Christmas cookies and New Year's Eve bubbly.
I also want to raise the bar and lose 25 lbs by the first of the New Year. Every New Year in the past I have started it out by being an average of 10 lbs heavier from all of the holiday "noshing".
This is staring down my "fat head" that says that it is "okay" to over eat and/or eat the wrong kinds of foods that do NOT support my weight lose goals. I am tired of sabotaging all of my hard work at the drop of a hat.
My wake up call came this week when I had one restaurant meal each day from Monday-Friday followed by 1/2 dozen chocolate chip cookies last night and a weight GAIN of 5 lbs all because of my "wrong" belief that since I am now working out harder, I "deserve" to eat more!! WRONG! WRONG!
I dug my own hole and I walked right into it.I am making this public for the accountability to show my mistakes, my intent and my resolve.
Today is a new day and I have "dragons to slay".