so I've been having major pain in my hip for about a week now (after having minor pain off and on, for about a year). today I saw a specialist who is sending me to a more specialized surgeon... to decide if I can have surgery or not. the surgery would correct the problem, but because of my age, they're not sure the risk of damaging my hip is worth it. also, the non-invasive options are not helping.
so... I'm freaking out... and the old me is trying to say "just eat whatever you want, it's bad day, it's ok to let go" the new me is flipping out. I know I can't just jump of the band wagon... I've worked too hard. I am also worried about being laid up for a couple weeks, at my parents house, where I'll have ZERO control over what they feed me.
I'm more than 500 calories over for today. I can't work out.
oh yeah... and they might cut me open. perspective.


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