Hi all! For the past few days I've been really paying attention to my eating habits; I never used to eat vegetables in any form (don't like the taste of any of them), my weight loss diet only focused on portion size). Then, after a disappointing weigh-in on Monday I've decided to take the focus off weight loss for a while and focus on maintaining my current weight and on healthy eating in general (with the secret hope that I would lose weight as a result)
I've begun eating vegetables (I can tolerate green smoothies sweetened with pineapple), and a few locally available vegetable dishes. HOwever, due to the fact that I never used to do this before, and this is not how we eat in my family, I find myself eating differently from my mom and friend (who lives in our house). I'm gradually going to introduce my 'new' way of eating to everyone else, especially my mom (who has been diabetic for about 30years, she's 69 now, and she's also open to new ideas on blood sugar control), but I'm already feeling as if I'm taking this 'too far'. Right now I'm scared that I'm setting myself up for an irreversible binge, and I wonder maybe I should slow down? I have major food addiction issues and this sharp change is making me feel all 'diety' and all. I mean I haven't changed anything else basically, but in my mind, vegetables is 'diet food'. I know it should be a part of my daily food intake, but I'm just worried...
I take my veggie smoothie at breakfast and it fills me up so much that I'm not physically hungry till about 3-4pm. Also the fact that I start my day with vegetables and fruits make it less likely for me to want to 'spoil' my day with less healthy eating. This should be a good thing, but I fear for when I'll say 'to **** with it all!'
I'd love for this to be a habit, but I guess disordered eating just messes up your mind... for life.
That said, I plan on sticking with it, I really enjoy my dose of morning veggies: This morning I made a smoothie with cashews, peanuts, a little bit of coconut and natural cocoa powder, and it tasted almost like a chocolate milkshake! Healthy eating tastes and feels good.
On another note, can disordered eating/food addiction be cured? Why am I afraid that there's a f**^@#k-it-all binge in my nearest future?