I have had eating disordered behavior for a few years now. It was never to a point where I was at a serious risk of doing permanent damage, but I have been hooked on both extremes. There have been times when I was eating just one small meal a day in a desperate attempt to lose weight, even though I was already small (though never underweight).
And then there have been times - and this was most recently - when I would literally eat until I was sick. Not until I was vomiting, I mean, but until all I could do was lay in bed and clutch my stomach helplessly... and then I'd shove in a few more Cheetos, anyway.
Thing is, I didn't even realize recently that binges are actually a... thing? That is, I didn't realize it was even considered a serious problem. But it was hard to take a good, hard look at myself and realize that eating until you are a bit past comfortably full is bad enough. Eating until you feel positively sick and hurt is even worse.
I've had to wean myself off by simply not keeping the foods I binge on around me. Right now, I would have all kinds of things with me (I won't list them in case any readers find that troublesome). Somehow, I'm hoping that when I hit goal, I'll miraculously be able to keep these foods again because I won't want to ruin all of my hard work.
How do you guys beat binging? How bad has your binging been? I feel like there's so much sympathy for the people who are troubled enough to starve themselves, but bingers are just 'pigs'. =/

