I was thinking about my food habits and why I eat the way that I did. One thing I realized was that when I ate meals with people, I could eat the whole thing, but I never felt...completely satisfied-like emotionally I didn't really like I "really" had a meal. Not sure why, maybe cause in my adolescent years, I ate dinner alone when my parents worked, but I still grew up eating with people. I'd end up either eating another meal after or grabbing food to eat alone. I think that I feel a recharge from being alone, even though I like to socialize. I love having coffee with friends, or a salad or something and just hanging out in general, but for my real meals, I just like eating them alone. I did eat with friends occasionally in college, because some of my friends were busy and that was our only regular social time, but now that I moved to a different state, I eat alone more. My sister was just telling me that food is a social thing, that I should ease into it, but I've spent years eating with other people (and then later on eating alone) its dangit, I can't try to change it anymore because I genuinely like it. I've pretty much decided that...thats just how I am? Plus now that I am on a diet, I don't get funny looks if I only have a bite of this or that (like the really chocolately part of a dessert, but I don't want to waste calories on the entire dry pastry), or I just get the veggies from a buffet line. Its also just calming just to eat and focus on food without having to stop to talk, eat, talk haha. I just feel more satisfied lol.
I hope that I'm not the only one who likes eating alone =(


