Tyla, You have no idea how much I appreciate you! Today, it really feels like I took your hand that day. I truly hope that I can do the same thing for someone else one day.
I am in awe that today is 100 days for me. Never in a MILLION years did I think it was possible. But something was different inside of ME this time. Maybe I just got so sick of all the hiding and self-hatred which led to more binging, etc.? I'm honestly not sure what IT was...I think it was a combination of things. I know that I always had the feeling of wanting more. Knowing that there is more out there to be had and wondering why can't I have a shot at it? I think one of the hardest things I've had to accept was that I couldn't get out of my OWN way so that I could go after the things that I've wanted.
Happily, that's changed now. It's still very much a work in progress. But after all of the work that's been done thus far, I can honestly say...with my shoulders back and my head held high...that I've come a long way. With that said, I feel that I'd be nothing without this forum. I certainly wouldn't be binge free today or nearly as active as I am now. I thank all of you for that! Thank you for an unending river of support that flows so freely. Thank you for catching me when I fall. Thank you for helping me dust off when I need it. Most of all, thanks for being there.
