I'm making lasagna tonight for supper, and it's made me think. I've got the meat one in the oven for my hubby and four kids, and I am about to put the veggie one in for myself - of course they help eat that one too! My veggie lasagna is the Roman one- no ricotta cheese (ewww) and it is 2.25 pounds in weight. Lasagna was my turning point. About 4 years ago, I remember making lasagna (I ate it about once a week), sitting down and going for my final and last serving- my 2.25 pounds of lasagna was now gone, all down MY throat!!!! I remember how I felt. Disgusted, ashamed. What has happened to me that I regularly eat 2.25 pounds of lasagna in one sitting I thought??!! The next morning I hopped on the scale ~again~ 203 pounds. I sat down on my bed and cried in shame. My life had to change! What have I done. I've watched my weight creep up, day by day, week, by week, month by month, year by year and still it didn't seem to register that I WAS FAT!!!! Until that day that is. I stood up, peeled off all of my clothes and took a good look in the mirror. Please keep in mind that I have always looked into the mirror, but never seen myself as fat- until that day! I pinched my gut, looked at my cheeks and for the first time saw the real me, the double chin, the way I still tried to squeeze into my clothes that I kept outgrowing, my last pair of jeans I bought was a size 17, I looked at the tag as I went to put them on, they were tight too!!!!! That was my beginning of my weight loss journey, which I am still conquering. Now I weigh 127 and still see myself as fat. Somedays I think I am too critical of me now, but maybe I have to be, so I never go back blindly into that category of being overweight-probably obese. Tonight I am going to eat lasagna. It is my third time this year eating it. I'm about to put 2.25 pounds of veggie lasagna in the oven. Tonight, I have control. I will still eat a large portion, I know this. I will still be in my caloric range for the day however. My portion will be about one third of the 2.25 pounds 0.75 pounds maximum. Maybe a tad bit less, but no more. I will eat some tomorrow for lunch too, not as big however. Tonight, I will eat it slowly and enjoy every morsel, still feel some guilt, but know, I am no longer out of control. I HAVE what it takes. I can TELL when I am FULL now and it does not take me 2.25 pounds of terrible, terrible but delicious lasagna to feel that way.

Good for you- and you are NOT fat!

what a touching story.... thank you for posting it and sharing such a personal and intimate moment in your life!!! i can only imagine how beautiful you are, inside and out!!!

congratulations!!!!

(p.s. I hope you really did enjoy that lasagna! i hope that someday soon i can enjoy some of my 'favorites' from my heavy days without feeling out of control)

You WILL be able to! I seen your ticker- you have come an amazing distance so far!!!!! With being able to accomplish what you have already, proves you have the control!