If you have seen my other threads a couple of days ago... you will know that I dropped 17 pounds quite fast... but I went out drinking on Halloween... and gained 6 pounds and was able to lose 3 of it but now I'm at a complete standstill..... since 11/5 (needless to say, I will NEVER be drinking again... at least not until when and if I ever reach my goal... and then... it won't be much... thank God I'm not an alcoholic!

I know it is only the 9th... but still... I want to see some change.

I started on Oct. 19th.... and even though I lost 17 pounds I guess I am too heavy to notice it yet.

I have not been cheating... I have been exercising (walking) twice a day for 30 minutes at a time.

So... today I decided to try something new... I tried Zumba.

BIG HUGE HORRIFIC mistake for me!

I wasn't ready... and I was by far the fattest women in the room.

I couldn't keep up and quit halfway through the hour long class, and my self esteem (which had been pretty good) took a major hit.

As a result... I have cried uncontrollably all evening long.... and I want to eat everything in the entire house... **** I want to get in the car and drive from fast food to fast food and eat and eat and then go get some candy and eat.... some more.

I just hate the feeling of being trapped in my own body... at it's own will it will do as it pleases... no matter how hard I work.

But... rest assured... now that I have STARTED trying... as soon as I STOP... I will gain back the 17 pounds and MORE....

I am so upset, and not really sure how anyone could console me... so I'm just rambling... thank you for listening... this site really helps me. It's so inspirational to see that some people can do it.

I sure wish/hope/pray that I'm one of them.

You said it yourself. As soon as you stop you'll undo all the progress you've made.

Don't let one failed exercise class define your future. Put Zumba on the back burner and try again when you feel more ready. Keep on walking and eating right and there's no way you won't keep losing weight.

Imagine how guilty you would feel if you had gone out and eaten all that fast food. Don't do it! Tomorrow is a new day and remember, no one in exercise classes cares about anything except their own bodies.

You can do this.... you don't need to turn back to food. Whatever mistakes you have made today it is still just ONE DAY. If you get back on the wagon tomorrow, or even right now, the damage is limited. the scale *will* move eventually i promise!!

i am so proud of you for trying the zumba!! How many skinny women are too whimpy to try it!! Honey now you know what it's all about and you can go back when you lose ten or 20 more pounds

Honey i tried pilates and used to get so sick i wanted to puke. i eventually quit going. But i am still proud i gave it a shot! How will we know if we never try anything?

Just sit and feel your feelings. Process them, brush your teeth and drink some water, watch tv or take a walk. you can do this!!

-fm

I'm about your height and like you, started out in the high 200's. My advice (FWIW) is don't try to do too much right away. The walking you're doing is awesome! I don't think I would have been able to do that when I started out. I started with really easy wii fit activities. I was lucky to be able to do 10 minutes on my elliptical. Slowly, but surely, though, I stuck with it and greatly improved my fitness level. In my experience, if you try to do too much (especially when you're NOT having fun), you won't be able to stick with it.

I think it's really brave of you to have tried an exercise class! Even though it didn't work out, that says a lot! I still exercise at home because I'm too self-conscious to work out in front of other people (unless I'm just out walking or something.) But that's just me. There are a lot of great videos, etc. out there you can try if you want to add variety to your workouts. I really like walk away the pounds.

Good for you for not giving into the fast food! You're doing great so far. Don't let one class derail all of your efforts!

Don't quit.

As you know, one night of drinking can set you back a week or more, a night of binging can set you back 2 weeks or more, (trust me on this one.)

You were brave to go to the Zumba class, and there is no shame in trying. Don't give up chickie. Being a normal weight is SO worth it. Everyday you blow it is another week of being obese and miserable. Trust me on this one too!

EG
First many hugs to you - .

I am jealous of your courage to try into a zumba class. There is one at my gym and I can't get the courage for it. I want to but it is too intimidating to me. I did try a yoga class and by far I was the fattest in class. I struggled. And then I saw a co-worker. I was mortified. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. I just had to take the hit to my self-esteem. I am fat - plain and simple. It is not a surprise to anybody. I have the memory of that experience in my head every time I want to hit the junk food.

Here is my daily weigh in - 9 days = 1 pound. My progress since 3/4/10 - 1.1 pounds a week. One frickin' pound a week. And in between the yo-yo.

1: 243
2: 244
3: 244.5
4: 244.5
5: 242.5
6: 243
7: 241
8: 241.5
9: 242

I am sharing this so you know you are not alone. I feel for you as you struggle to find your way. Be patient with yourself and the scale. Maybe you should take a break from getting on it for a couple of days. It does seem to be adding salt to your self-esteem wound.

DO NOT feel bad about that class. Zumba is HARD! I took the senior class and I had 65 year old women beating me but I said more power to em! It's a hard class to take, I didn't go back either. I knew I wasn't ready.
I am going through the same thing you are right now as far as eating goes. I have had a VERY bad day and a half but I have probably eaten enough for us both. Im going to go take a shower, meditate a bit and get centered, curl up in my comfy bed with a good movie and let myself know that this is just one day and tomorrow is back to the old routine.

YOU CAN DO IT too sweety. We can all do this. At least we all have been brave enough to face our weight issues and conquer them together.

((hugs))

Sweetie, you need to take baby steps. All I had to do was watch a Zumba class and I knew it wasn't for me. So just because you couldn't keep up with something that is way too hard, don't let that become an excuse to give up. Zumba Shmumba, you're tougher than that.

Don't start thinking you can't lose weight because of this. Stick with your plan. If it's calorie counting, stay with it. If it's portion control, stay with it. If it's going for walks, great! Stay with it. Slow and steady on!


Jay

Each day is a new day. Wake up and just move forward again as if it didn't happen. Stick to your program and move forward. Sometimes we slip and fall, but just gotta get back up and move forward. You can do it. I know how you feel, and it's awful and I wish I could say this will be the last time you feel like this but it may not be. Just know, you are in control, and you can make yourself get back on track. It was a bad day, try to make a good day now. <<hugs>> Good Luck

Thanks so much everybody... after having my pity party and sleeping on it... I feel much better this morning.

It helps so much to have the support you guys give... and to know that I'm not the only one who is facing this.

I won't try Zumba again anytime soon... but I will continue to walk and eat right... it's gonna take time... I know that. I just have to be patient.

Thanks for heading off my breakdown girls

I'm not in the 100lb club, but thought I'd throw this out there.

Do the exercise that you're comfortable with and that you know you'll stick with. The best kind of exercise is the exercise you'll actually do. Sure, I have ambitions of running a 5k...one day. But me thinking about it isn't doing me any good. There are gals on here who are much heavier than me that run 5k as their regular workouts! Props to them! I've tried so hard to find an exercise routine that I enjoy and that I know I can stick to. It's pathetic how un-athletic I am, I simply despise exercise. I tried Zumba, and it kicked my butt too. For one, I'm so uncoordinated and have such a terrible sense of rhythm that I could barely follow along with the moves, but I had to take a hit to my pride and bow out about halfway through the session when there were gals (of all sizes) who were barely breaking a sweat. As unathletic as I am, I've simply had to compromise with myself. I KNOW I need to move to be healthy. I can walk for 60 min/day (usually broken up into two or three shorter walks) and not be bitter about it. I also like to lead an active lifestyle, I'm out and about and doing things. I enjoy activities like hiking, bowling, recreationally swimming, etc that burn calories. The "I'm going to go to the gym to work out" thing just...didn't work for me. So at the end of this spheel that has become much longer than I intended, my point is, ANY activity is better than none. So whatever you're doing and easily sticking to is absolutely perfect. Push yourself in baby steps.

As for wanting to eat the discouragement away, I know the feeling, but we all know that that's the most illogical and counterproductive thing you can do. You'll eat <insert comfort food of choice>, it'll taste good for a few minutes, but then what? You're left with a higher number on the scale, guilt, remorse, and feeling worse than before. When I have those negative feelings, I try my hardest to convert that energy into a positive outcome. If I'm feeling down about my weight or feeling bad that I went off plan, I get even MORE serious about doing healthy on-plan things. I'll calorie count more strictly (no extra bites), I'll plan a very healthy meal plan for the day and stick to it, I'll go on an extra walk, I'll take pride in saying "no thanks" to an offer of bad food. I have learned (through trial and error, I assure you) that eating wildly off plan does NOT make me feel better. Making positive healthy choices DOES. Even if the scale doesn't change for the better immediately, doing healthy things and staying on plan makes me feel in control, stable, and accomplished. Eventually the scale will reflect that which will just be icing on the cake.

Girl, I can run a mile in 10 minutes and Zumba had me huffing and puffing like I was trying to blow someone's house down! lol. But seriously, I am going through the same thing (although I've probably had more cheat days than I care to admit...I'm working on it) with feeling a little hopeless, but look what you have accomplished: 17 lbs. in less than a month?!?!?! is no small feat and just stick with what you're doing and eventually you'll be able to Zumba circles around those smaller women (if that's what you want to do, ITA with a previous response: find what you like and exercise will be cool) you are doing this and to me, you're an inspiration for me to give off my fanny and stick with it! You rock!

This.

Hang in there! You CAN do it