I've been eating healthy since elementary school. My obesity is mainly due to my utter and complete lack of exercise, and comfort eating through high school. I've been counting calories since January 1st 2010, but I'm not going to lie, there are weeks where I don't count, because I'm sure I know what I'm eating. Really I'm not. But it feels good to pretend like I know everything. Those weeks usually happen when I feel good, when I just lose some weight, or have accomplished something. I weigh myself weekly on Saturday morning, and last week I weighed in at 171.6 pounds. I hadn't lose weight for a while, but I just started going back to the gym, and I was so happy that it was working!
Then, my partner decided we had to go to the mall to get a new video game, so I innocently tagged along, and ended up facing an entire aisle of breakfast cereal on sale for $3 a box. I don't know where you live, but here a box of Lucky Charms is almost $6. So well, I bought 2 boxes of sugary kids cereal. Which is no big deal, I have been eating sweets, fried foods and pastries this whole time. As long as it fits in my calorie budget it'll fit in my mouth.
Well anyhow. I came home with said cereal. Sugary, bad-for-you kids' breakfast cereal. Ahh! Now keep in mind I just weight myself at 3 pounds lighter than last week. I'm feeling great! And I'm not counting calories. And what goes better with happiness than food! And so I ate a bowl of cereal. Which is not bad. About 200 calories. The problem is, before I bought the ******* cereal, I didn't have that bowl of cereal in the evening. Now I do. I've been eating one every night. Scratch that; I've been eating 2 every night, for 4 nights in a row now, and I haven't been keeping track of my calories. I have to weigh in tomorrow morning, and I KNOW I will have gained, because I KNOW I did not burn those extra 4000 calories, there is just no way. And I know what I need to do, and I guess I just needed to vent, but those ******* sugar clusters have gotten me so stressed out all day. It's not like anyone is going to cut my head off if I gained weight, but I JUST started losing again and I'm going to HATE myself so darn much if I didn't manage to at least maintain...



(it was a long, overindulgent encounter, IYKWIM)
