2-3 weeks to get settled into the new routine, followed by a few months of being totally into it. Eating right, exercising like crazy, feeling awesome... then I get into the third month...
All of a sudden all of my binge urges are back, I don't feel like exercising anymore - and if I do, I half-a$$ it. Pretty soon I'm back to where I started.
I'm actually rounding the corner on 4 months now...but I'm still in my 3rd month. (I started up again at the beginning of June... ) I'm starting to get those feelings again. Not that I've fallen off yet, but I feel my will starting to give out again. I used to be excited to do my exercise DVDs...now I have to force myself to. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy them...but actually getting the motivation to get up and do them is becoming more and more difficult. And I've been suppressing major binge urges, too.
It's not like I'm depriving myself of anything. I still eat fast and junk food when I crave it... It's just so weird how I can be going so strong all this time and then one day I just wake up and it's like - okay time to go back to binge eating and 5 days a week of McDonalds.
I'm more determined than ever, though. I've lost more weight and am more toned than I ever was in my previous "3 month" attempts. I'm gonna do this... I didn't come all this way to give up now. (Haha, Jillian...) it's just that the past few weeks haven't been easy, and it's frustrating and annoying.
So I guess I just needed to vent. I'll be okay... I have to be. I can't let myself slide again. I don't want to have to start over... I really don't.
Okay. Got that off my chest. Haha. Encouragement/Advice appreciated, thanks. xoxo



