I registered on 3FC a while ago, but have been a lurker. At the time that I registered, I was around 250 lbs. That was probably about 2-3 years ago. Today, I am 5'9 and 293.6 lbs according to my new digital scale. Never in my life did I think I would be practically 300 lbs. I recall that 5 years ago, when I was about 220lbs, I thought there was no way I would ever let myself even get to 250 lbs. I don't even remember seeing 250 on the scale. It came and went and I never saw it. So, here I am. 27. Almost 300 lbs. Ready for change. Hoping that I can stop merely lurking on this website and begin to use it as a resource. Just tonight, I have spent hours reading inspirational story after inspirational story about real women, and I have felt so moved. I want to be these women, and I know I can be someday with the help of this wonderful community. For the last 3 years I have used my being in law school as an excuse for why my weight has increased, but it's not an excuse. Now that law school is over, the stress of studying for the bar exam is the new excuse I am tempted to make for myself. My 6th grade gym teacher used to say, "There's no such thing as excuses, there's only explanations." He was right. Because excuses won't make my weight magically decrease. Only hard work will do that. So, this is the beginning of my journey. Writing it down makes it feel real, not just a fleeting thought in my addled brain. So, thanks 3FC for giving me a place to memorialize the beginning of this ride. I hope I come out better on the other end.

half the battle is starting! hope to see you around!


