So yesterday was my littlest's first birthday. Of course the camera came out.. I HIDE from the camera, and now I know why!! Hubby had it in his hands and well, I was tending to the little guy and the other kids of course. Today I looked at the pics I want to delete every single one with me in it I don't feel as gianormous as those pics show that I am. I can't help but cry over them, how did I let this happen????

I'm trying to look at the bright side... I have some great "before" pictures now, and I will look so much better next year on his birthday... but it's really hard to see the brighter side when I see this big blob looking back at me

Don't worry mama. I felt the same way but you are on the right track for success! Actually I can't even find before pics cause I always hid from the camera.

I understand! My daughter was taking surprise pics with her camera on Mother's Day. I thought I was looking great. I fixed my hair, had on makeup and a pretty necklace. Then, I saw some of the pictures she had taken when I wasn't even aware she was taking them. I never knew I had a double chin! And, my stomach is much larger than I realized. Now, I'm feeling very self conscious. I hate this.

That is what started my "new life change"......lol. I saw pics of me with my kids and I thought "WOW, I didn't think I looked THAT bad". I know exactly where you are coming from!! I really LOVE the way you are turning this into a positive thing by saying "Now I have some great before pics", instead of letting it hinder you!! Way to go!!

Pictures have a way of doing that. I don't feel as big as the way I look in pictures for some reason. So looking at those pictures is a huge shock.

I have not reached a point where I feel comfortable looking at my before pictures. They make me feel so sad.

But the good thing is that they are BEFORE pictures.

You have the opportunity and more importantly the ABILITY to change. Later you can decide if you want to look at them or not.

Even 90 lbs later, it still hurts me that I ever looked like that. But on the other hand, it's so funny, because people tell me that they really don't remember me every being that big.... you would be surprised how quickly the old images fade in your own mind and the minds of others as well.

Thanks girls

Rhonda.. I too was feeling like I looked mighty fine! Nothing like reality to smack you in the face!

Hubby said print one out and hang it on the fridge door.. MY GOODNESS NO WAY IN H***!! I would die before I hung that there (plus I don't really look at the fridge door when I open it.. maybe if hung it inside...lol).

grrrrrrrrrr you'd never call another big girl a BLOB!!! you'd find something pretty to focus on and find a nice comment to make!!

be as kind to yourself please

I hate having my picture taken too, but then I hated it when I was slim all those years too. The thing about destroying all the "fat" photos of yourself is that you are also eliminating memories for your family. You really don't want to look back one day with your grown kids and realize it was like you weren't there at all. I think that would be really sad.

Trazey.. you are very right. It's much easiery to be mean to ourselves, and I let that happen. I was very very angry at myself, very very sad, and honestly down right disgusted at what I saw.

I have decided to turn it into a positive reinforcement.. and so far it's working

Paula.. I would never destroy the photos.. but man it would have been soooo easy to go through a deleting spree