No shame, but a lot of pain

  • My name is Kris, and oh yes, I am a fat chick. I cannot say I have always been heavy, but I can say I have never been thin. When I was in the Air force, way more years ago than I care to say, I weighed in at 119 pounds, which for my very petite height of 4'10" was still slightly overweight, but I was incredibly healthy, fit, and, if I do say so myself, damned sexy. Now (okay, I'll say it..20 years later) I am no longer incredibly healthy and fit. I am, however, still sexy in mind, if not quite so much in body. I talk too much, hence I type too much, so bear with me, please. I knew I had gained a lot of weight, but honestly had not realised how much, nor been very concerned about it. Then one day, about 3 months ago, I was walking the 3 minutes to the local convenience store, and realised that I was in pain. My hips hurt, my feet hurt, and I found myself stepping slower and slower. I got home, did a true assessment of myself, and went..wow, when did this happen??

    So when my husband got home, I cornered him and asked him why he had not said anything about how fat I had become. All of you should know that love is a wonderful thing, and moments like this are when we can be absolutely sure that we chose the right life partner. He looked at me, shrugged, and said "well, I wouldnt call you fat exactly, but you are definitely ready for hibernation. You still look good to me though."

    Sweet though it was, I was still fat. I got a decent scale, and forced myself to step on it. Seeing the red glowing 197 was very hard for me, but it was also a wake up call. I love food. I always have. But I knew I needed to start loving it just a little bit less (or just gaze adoringly at it from a distance), and I needed to force myself to get off my butt and get moving. So on February 21, 2010, I started working very hard to live the life of Eat less, and exercise more. 11 weeks later I am down 27 pounds, and my feet and hips no longer hurt when I walk. My goal is 130 pounds, so I still have a ways to go, but I still have my momentum going. I suppose that is why I joined here. I have been reading for about a week now, and I know that momentum is bound to lag at some point, and I might need some cheering on. I know the first pounds come off relatively quickly when you start out as high as I was, and I also know when that slowdown hits, I'm going to want to drown myself in a bucket of deep fried shrimp, and some mozzarella sticks. So if any of you can put a smile on my face just as big as that shrimp and mozzarella can, I know I stand a fighting chance! Thanks for reading, and nice to meet all of you!
  • Hi Kris and

    Congrats! on your 27# weight loss so far! Yes, there will come a time when you will find the momentum lagging and you will ponder eating all that bad stuff you discussed. Thats why I'm here, too.

    My greatest success has been finding a "home" forum here where I post every single morning no matter how I feel. Usually I feel pretty good, but by posting daily I come and say hello even if my world feels like it's falling apart.

    Best wishes!
  • Oh no! Don't give in to the mozzarella sticks! xD Those are my all-time favorite, so I understand your frustration!

    Good luck and congrats on your weight loss so far.
  • Great job on your loss so far!!
  • Great job on your 27 Lbs loss!! You are doing awesome!!
  • Hi and welcome to 3FC.

    Congrats on your success and good luck with your goals.

    Hugs
    Michelle