Today I was feeling crabby and depressed all day. I ate a normal lunch and when I was walking home, I decided I could not face exercise. I thought about it and decided that I wasn't copping out- I needed a rest day.

Then I stopped for coffee and changed my mind about my dinner. I wanted to make a spicy salsa. So I went to the grocery store, bought only vegetables and made this spicy salad. Ate dinner with the salad. And had a banana for dessert.

It only occurs to me now that in the old days I would have binged. I would have cruised the grocery store for binge food. Instead, it didn't occur to me to overeat. I took care of myself by eating right, taking a hot shower and making plans with a friend.

This is a miracle. I hope this lasts.

Motivated Chickie,

Way to go!! Wanted to say thanks for the information about somethingfishy.org. There is an outpatient ED program in my city. Thanks for passing along what you've learned and know that works.

Bonnie

it is sooo nice to read a post like this... to hear that you are doing so well adn that it is nearly 'natural' now congrats on the Ya Me moment!!!!

That is great. Its weird that when we approach eating "normally" without obsessing about it, it feels weird.

Congrats!

Hi Bonnie...

I think it's great you are doing ED treatment. Although I felt large next to these young anorexic/bulimic women, they became my friends. I love them.

Btw, I did lose weight during and right after treatment (almost 25 pounds), but weight loss wasn't the focus, sensible eating and emotional health were.

YAY!! Congrats!!

I am so glad you posted your miracle! Love reading stuff like that.