Just wondering if I am normal in my thoughts here. I have been heavier my whole life. In 5th grade I was in a size 15 juniors and it just went up from there to size 18 by 8th grade and 22/24 by senior year. In the last 5 years I have steadily gained weight to my top weight of 333 (besides possibly when 9 months preggo with my now 2 year old). It is really HARD for me to picture myself at 149 lbs, let alone any smaller if I change my goal.
Is it normal to feel this way? And how do you get over it? I'm not ready to give up so I know that someday I will see myself at 149 lbs but I CANNOT picture it in my mind.





