Hello!

I'm a long-time lurker who kind of hit her breaking point two nights ago during a drunken bout of anti-Valentine's-day loneliness. A bit about myself, I'm 32, single, living in Brooklyn and on the surface probably appear to have my sh*t together. But I'm morbidly obese and miserable and am tired of beating myself up about it.

So, instead of continuing to go it alone and failing, I've decided to actually post. My highest weight was 295. So I've managed to maintain about a 40 pound loss for a few years now, but my habits have made getting any further impossible. Now I'm at 252 and want to get down to 147.

I want to lose 105 pounds. I'm tired of being the only one single at holidays. I'm tired of being fat and feeling awkward on the subway. I'm tired of feeling like I have to eat and drink out with my friends for them to like me... I'm overwhelmed but need this.

I've decided to reach out to you guys and to my family for support this time, instead of trying to keep everything a secret so that no one would know if I failed... Because this time I have to make a change. I can't live like this anymore. Looking forward to stepping out of the shadows and being involved.

-- Jenny

Jenny -

Email me, if you'd like. I've found this time around, have someone to be accountable to has kept me brutally honest to myself and has allowed me to stick on plan better. It also helps when you're down on yourself to have someone else to be there to pick you up. I can help you, you can help me, and we'll do this together!

rachel.meyer9 at gmail dot com.

HI Jenny, I am in brooklyn at the moment too! What part are you in? Good luck! You absolutely can do this!

Hi Jenny:

We have alot in common and if you need a buddy I would love to have one. send me an email bdazzpugs @ yahoo

Sarina

Welcome Jenny sounded like you could use a hug! I'm rather new here too & haven't got a buddy yet, so if you'd like maybe we could go it together.

Hi Rachel - I've read a couple of your posts and it sounds like you've got the right attitude, if you've got room for another buddy I think we could be helpful to one another.

Sarina - Hi, we're in the same neck of the woods. Your the first person I've seen that is close to me. Would love a buddy myself, if your interested

My email is [email protected] if anyone would like a buddy.

~Chrissy

Hi jenny,
I wish you luck. I know you can do this.

Jenny,

you WILL loose the weight! just repeat that in your mind and envision the body you want constinently in your mind. also, attempting to get out side and walk a little bit each day helps (i know it has for me.) i am a similar weight and i know how uncomfortable it can feel on subways! (ughhh)

best of luck!

Thanks ladies! I really appreciate the warm welcome!

I am motivated to slim down. Dieting is easy to follow and lose weight, it is just hard to keep it off - it is just my family and friends don't really understand that I have to stick to it. You have to turn down offers to go out to lunch, dinner, family barbeques, etc. I did not attend a Super Bowl party this year because those parties only offer huge quantities of food and massive amounts of beer and alcohol. I started my diet on Jan.5th, 2010, at 191 lbs. A good weight for me is 160 lbs, since I am about 5 ft 6 and one half inches tall and about medium to large upper body buidl. I weighed 120 lbs at my thinnest when I was 20 years old. This puts everything in perspective. Obviously our bodies fill out as we get older, but this is ridiculous**wink with a smile***. I am 39 years old now. If I don't pay attention to my weight, it will gradually increase every year and will be even more of a challenge later. I am very focused and I will be weighing myself in a few days to determine where I am at right now. All work and no play, but that is the name of the game. If anybodys want to chat or wants to share an experience, I am open to it. Just hit me up.

Andy