My weight has crept up from 240lbs to 320lbs since 2004. I haven't been able to successfully diet since 2005, and I feel that my weight is now preventing me from being able to be a mom---something I think I was meant to be.

I find myself tired all of the time and easily winded. I also find that I at times, can't be around friends who are pregnant, as it sometimes makes me very sad.

I need the support of this forum to help keep me on track with my goals. I don't know what is wrong with me---I know how I should eat, but I keep thinking I can do programs like WW, only to fail. I am tired of being judged at work about my weight and I am tired of hearing myself say "when I lost weight before, I ate a certain way...).

any advice greatly appreciated

You are in the right place. We are all struggling. Most of us have lost weight before. I know what you mean about the "when I lost weight before" thinking. I sometimes berate myself for not being able to do it some days.

Lately, I try to look at myself like a sister or best friend. Sometimes I say things to myself that I would NEVER say to someone else. A little more TLC for me these days. One minute at a time.

I understand where you are coming from!! I also lost weight only to gain it all (and then some) back. It is no fun!! I am also tired of saying "when I lose this weight" . That is why I am here. I HAVE GOT TO lose it now or I don't think I ever will. I am new here too, but everyone is so supportive and know what is going on with these weight loss challenges. I have really felt a lot more like dieting/changing my lifestyle since being on this board. I just keep reading and asking for help/advise/or just putting down thoughts. It has really helped me.
Good luck!! You can do it!!!!!!