Hi everyone,
I just wanted to pop in and tell everyone that I am really feeling hopeful about my weight loss this time. I have been bulimic, binge, all sorts of bad kinds of eating my whole life. I have hurt my body with every kind of diet pill, laxative, starvation, any thing to lose weight. In 1995 I had gastric bypass surgery. I quit the physical bulimia but it was constantly on my mind. I never got down to the weight I should have and am now creeping back up again. this morning I weighed in at 193.5. I've gained about 20lbs in the past 5 months. Anyway, I have been following lots of tips and advice on this board and for once in my life i"m going to do this the right way. My plan is to consume no less than 1000 and no more than 1400 calories a day. I want to allow myself to eat normal foods and not freak out and blow my whole day over a bite of cake. I'm going to excercise at least 5 days a week and JOURNAL and keep track of my food intake. I will also try to be my own best friend instead of my worst enemy. I'm so tired of the emotional pain I am in most of the time. I know how happy I feel when I am thinner and healthier. For the life of me I can't figure out why I sabatoge myself so bad. I'm not going to a therepist as I hae tried that several times before. They don't know anymore than I do about my issues. I just need to learn to love myself and know that I am worth it.
Thanks for listening,
Gwen


