Soooo, at college I haven't had a scale. Once, I bought one and used it consistently, but it ran out of battery at the end of my sophomore year (last year), and I just threw it out.
I weighed myself consistently over this past sumer, though, using other people's scales and I was staying around 231 without trying! That was my weight! I ate as much as I felt, and I just simply stayed at 231...
So I'm back home because my granny just passed...That's when I had my wake-up call/realization. I've been dieting for the past 4 days...SIGH. I bought a scale tonight, because it was killing me not knowing.
I weighed myself...and I was....250.9.
I almost cried. It took everything in me not to break down right there. I so don't understand where this 20 pounds came from!!!!! I haven't eaten any differently! Now I feel so set-back...So much more time now....I feel so terrible. I just...I don't know. It seems so unfair. I want to break down.
I know that I have to keep going...but I feel so discouraged now. I'm so far away from even what I thought my starting point was. I'm so sad.
I wish...I wish this never happened to me.


