I have been searching around the web for a site to use for support. I remember finding this site originally, goodness it has to be close to 10 yr. ago now. I think I even joined at some point! LOL But, I really need to get my weight back under control.
I have been over weight since middle school. Clinical depression and family genetics and dynamics have not worked in my favor! LOL
I did manage to lose 100 lb. 5 yr. ago, but have since manged to regain almost 120 lb.
I'll spare you the worst of the boring details. But life, stress, financial issues, major depressive episode all have played a part. I think one of the biggest issues, was having my dd diagnosed with major food issues, including Celiac disease. Things I probably should have recognized much earlier than I did. But, I was trying so hard to not to have her deal with the food issues I was raised with, that I missed what was right in front of my face. Thankfully she is doing great, now if only I was.When I lost the weight, people were constantly telling me how great I looked. There was a few people who didn't even recognize me. I have been so embarrassed over my regain. I am terrified of failing again and it is such a public failure. I don't know if I could handle that again. I have lost all confidence in myself.
When I did lose weight, even though everybody commented on what I looked like and I knew what size clothes I was wearing. When I looked in the mirror I didn't see the difference, I still saw the same fat body I always had. Unfortunately I think the same problem has kept me from recognizing how much wight I have regained. I do avoid mirrors when ever possible though! lOL
I don't even know what plan I want to use or how I am going to attack this weight. I just know I need to do something and do it now!
If you have made it through my rambling, Thank you!



Welcome. Be sure to come visit us in the maintainer's forum. Looking in the mirror and seeing our heavier selves - it happens to a lot of us. Maybe hearing our shared experiences might help.
aubrylin you are not alone in this issue when I started this almost two months ago I weighed in at 315.5 and I am now 294 and still loosing. for me what works for me is that I count calories and Log them in on sparkpeople and I do any where from 30 to 60 minutes workouts daily. You will jest have to find something that works for you.


