I know from past experience you can be cruising along, intending to start a diet every single monday and then something happens and the fact that you were totally out of control, on the downhill slide and just standing on the sidelines watching the pounds pile on, suddenly reverses and you take control and the next thing you know you have been on a diet for three weeks and doing well.
I was feeling suicidal for weeks. I was telling myself I just couldn't give up eating whatever I wanted. I just couldn't. Every day I thought about it and then sat in front of the TV and ate my way though all my favorite programs night after night. (I'm a night eater).
Then two things happened: the vision in my left eye overnight deteriorated and I found out if was due to high blood sugar, which I had known about but ignored, and worse, that it might not get better. It might be permanent. Secondly, I got on the scales and I had gained 6.5lbs in a week; a record for me. My usual lying to myself came crashing down and I was actually mentally paralyzed for a few minutes. I was staring **** in the face.
The next day I started what I thought I couldn't and my new motto is "You don't have to like it; you just have to do it." I say this because I have lost large amounts of weight a number of times. I alway thought I would become "normal" and be able to enjoy food and my body would regulate my intake. Not. Never. Never. Never. Alcoholics can relapse after 25 years; same with food addicts. It is really a hard reality for me to face. but, somehow in a weird way it makes it easier. We'll see.
Most people don't like limiting what they eat, fat or not. Being a food addict means you don't like it even more. The reality is that you will never "like" it; but, you can choose to do it. And you make this choice everyday.
So, what has turned you around on a dime?