I know the feeling all too well. Today I went back to ww after a break of about a month. Who wants to stand in line and wait to be weighed when you KNOW the news is all bad! It's hard enough praying and thinking really light thoughts when you're pretty sure you've lost...but it is a really good start when you do stand tall and go back. There is no finite amount of new starts you are allowed, don't punish yourself for gaining, feel pleased and proud that you had the nerve to come back.
I only put on .5 kilos (about a pound I think) so that was a mega amazing thing for me, after about a month I am usually 10 pounds in the red...hooray! Think about the weight you have kept off so far, not the weight you have put back on. Try hard not to focus on every tiny mouthful (I think that just makes things worse), and instead maybe make your focus enjoying the food you are eating. Make each meal your favourite low fat foods, and the best quality you can afford. If I have a craving for a hot-dog only a hot dog will do, I have wasted many years telling myself I really wanted alfalfa salad. What happens minutes, hours or days after is all I want is a hot dog and not just one but a couple at least with the lot and it ends badly all around. What I do now is buy some 97% fat free hot dogs, have one on a nice soft bun with sauce and mustard or whatever and really eat it slowly, enjoying the taste for as long as I can. Letting myself have a little of what I fancy straight away helps. If I have to watch what and how much I eat, I surely shouldn't have to wait for it too!
Take care and good luck
Belle
