I feel like I've come so far. Like I'm past the point of binging. Then, out of nowhere, the beast attacks! I've noticed there are certain foods that bring me to binge: pasta, cereal, ham-fried rice, tortilla chips, ice cream. What is the common thread? Is it that they all have a high GI index? I don't know, but I do know I CAN'T BE TRUSTED with them.
For the most part, I've banned these foods, but I'm wondering if that is actually making it worse. They are like my forbidden fruits - so tempting to me because they are totally off limits. When I've tried to incorporate them, I'll say to myself, 'I'll measure a serving and only eat that'. But I inevitably find myself overwhelmed with the desire for seconds, thirds, FOURTHS!!!
And what's worse, one binge food often leads to the next. Say we have pasta for dinner (BTW my pasta is always WW with tons of veg so I try to fill up on those - doesn't work though!), I'm much more likely to say "let's go for ice cream!", then come home and have a bowl of cereal too. This happens to me rarely, because it's rare that I allow myself items on the binge list. Nonetheless, it still happens. It happened yesterday
. I want to know that I have control over these foods, that they don't have control over me. I'm obviously not there.
