I need to rid my life of all rage triggers, and fast.
Last night before bed, another total awful meltdown, over the physical affects of another one of DH’s action movies… which are full of fear and provoke fear and anxiety in me, everytime. The rage came after the movie was over, I didn’t know I was that affected, but surely, it’s just like adrenaline, then I’m full of fight to the end . I’ts as if I get possessed. That’s two major and a couple little skiffs yesterday. I swear, whatever is going on with me … perimenopause…. sure is not for the weak-minded. I thinkmy DH is amazing for not losing his temper with me, although at the time I am convinced he deserves my wrath.
It’s obvious to me that I need to start managing my rage, as well as my food choices , as I eat like a raging person , and I highly suspect the emotions are the entire problem, wheras the overeating is the symtom. It's not a question about which is the chicken and which is the egg. The emotion is what needs to get dealt with, and I'm confident the eating will improve after. The physiological/cerebral/hormonal affects of rage are worse than calories, as I understand it, detrimental to good health in general.
I need to stop watching movies DH brings home. I need to solidify this rule for myself, instead of just threaten everytime I get upset. Tits&*** movies offend me, make me madder than a hornet, Stupid comedies with unintelligent plots and acting, really annoy and insult my intelligence, horror and action films are so full of shoot-em-up scenes, explosions, and car chases, that I just can’t take it, sports have commercials that go up in volume 10 times at the commercials and have me jumping out of my seat…. it’s just all too much, nothing works ont he tv. That’s IT… only documentaries and Bambi movies for me from now one.