Well....I need to talk.
Many of you here have known me for a long time. You knew me when I was a newlywed. When I was diagnosed with PCOS. When I began infertility treatment. When I began my weightloss journey. When I lost 62 lbs and felt wonderful. When I received my first compliment. When I bought a size 14 pair of pants. When my cycles returned normal again. When I got under 200 lbs, down to 188. When I moved in with my in-laws and hated them. When I was taking care of my younger sister. When I was building a home and when that dream was shattered. When I was purchasing the town house. When I seperated from my husband. When I had a good friend pass away. When I tried to understand why my sister was pregnant and not wanting to be, and I wasn't. When I moved in with a roommate (singlewhite female movie). When I had to move in with my Mother and her boyfriend whom I despise. When my divorce was final. And when I "regained" the weight I had promised myself I would never see again. When I was told I was "borderline diabetic".
It's been a really tough year for me, and I have shared the most personal things with many of you. You have supported me, believed in me and rooted me on even when I was so down. And believe me, it may not show in my daily posts, but I was down. And you all have helped me in ways you'll never know. So, I thank you.
And to the newer members who didn't know me through all of that, don't worry, my life has calmed down and am back in control. Hahahaha
Now, finally after 1 year, I feel like I have gained control again. Control over my body and my life. I will be moving this weekend and be out of work on Monday and Tuesday. I got the key last night and I can barely explain to you all of how I feel. I lost another 1.5 lbs, and now weighing in at 213 lbs. I will get back to where I was a year ago, and then I will make it to goal. If I can survive the last year, I can survive anything.
So, I now have both keys again. Key to my own home, and key to my own life.
I don't know what made me post this. But I just really wanted to let you know, how much you all mean to me. You've stood by my side through it all. And I can't say that about many people in my life. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Without your support, I may have not made it back.
((HUGS))
