Hi all....

Am an ex-anorexic who had been a stable "healthy" weight for several years but is now starting to put on weight....

Am having a hard time trying to lose weight without going back to starving! Have mainly resisted it so far, but am getting desperate enough to start the pattern again.

Does anyone else have this problem????

Would love to chat to someone about our mutual issues etc etc... Don't currently know anyone who would understand!

Love to hear from anyone who can relate, or would like to discuss their own stuff.

Love and hugs,

Ozgirl

I wish i could help you out more. I really just started recovery process with bulimia so I'm working on other issues right now. I overeat too and I know I'm still doing that but it's always in the back of my mind that I'm going to gain weight.

But if I could make a suggestion. Maybe if you find your correct cal intake per day to lose it would help. To lose you can intake as much as 1700-1800 per day to lose slowly and safely. Maybe a dr supervsion would help. I know when I restrict that's when my problems start, so be careful. Maybe just starting with small changes, more fruit, water, walking. Do it slow.

I know the one thing I'm trying to do is learn my body signals again, when I'm hungry, when I'm full. I'm still exercising and drinking water and trying to keep those healthy habits in my life that I've kept through my b/p lifestyle.

Good luck and take care

OZGIRL!
I've been waiting around for someone to relate to and that is my EXACT problem...
I'm 5"8 and was about 100 pounds when I began my road to recovery.... a relatively short one, considering how strict I had been with my eating habits and calorie allowances, etc....

Now I've gained weight to a healthy but still slim level, but my problem is I'm still eating the same "extra" amounts that added on that weight.... and when I try to eat less to maintain my weight, I feel sooooo hungry.... Thinking about eating only 1200-1500 calories a day scared the sh** outta me less than 6 months ago, and now it seems like I'd fall over on that little.

Msg here and we can talk

Thanks for both your replies, Runnergirl and LF. Am sorry to hear you're both having your own difficulties with eating and weight, but it is great to have someone who knows the issues to discuss with.

I think my main problem is that I have stopped counting calories, even though I am still a very very fussy eater (ie. no butter, bread, pasta, etc etc), although sometimes I am ashamed to say I pig out and eat junk!!!

I think I understand what you're saying, LF...when you're out of the habit of restricting / being anorexic but still have the same fears etc, it's hard to deal with the hunger, but there's also being scared of where weight gain might or might not stop if you continue to eat the cals you have been?...

There's big part of me that still wants to go back to old anorexic habits, as it is the only really successful way I have found to lose weight. While I "know" I'm not fat, I would still prefer to be thinner. Do you have those thoughts, too?

I'm 5'8" also, but don't know my weight in lbs (either then or now), as I am in Australia, but will work it out.

Will tell you more about me etc, if you want to keep in touch...perhaps we can offer support ongoing if you are interested. (Not really sure how to send private messages as yet, but don't mind whether it is public or private)

Take care, and would love to talk more....

Im australian too, and to work out your weight you do this..

If you weigh 50kg you go 50 x 2.2 = 110lbs
if you weigh 60kg you go 60 x 2.2 = 132lbs
etc.
So 2.2lbs =1 kg

and obviously if you are converting from lbs to kg you would go like 130lbs / 2.2 = 59kg

I am at a loss for words. Your problem tugs at my heart strings. I have never experienced your situation but I do feel for you. I can see how trying to lose weight could trigger a re-occurance of your past behavior and I hope you can find the correct solution . I don't know what your religious beliefs are but I am praying for you. Good luck, hon.