I know exactly how you feel. So do the others on 3FC. I know you feel all alone and that you can't do it. BUT...you can! It is good to go to the doctor. Tell them how you feel. My nutrtionist was my lifesaver. I resisted going to one for so long because I thought it made me a failure if I went. The doctor will run tests, maybe your gall bladder is making you hurt. Join a gym or just get out and walk. Do it for you. I have faith you will succeed. We are all here for you. When you get down, just come read the message boards. I always sign off feeling a whole lot better. Keep us informed on what the doctor says. 
