
But as soon as I saw the picture there was like a voice in my head saying '****, don't you see how fat you are?? You're really horrible!'
I don't have a starting picture to compare, but feel a little down that I was happy but then I hate my pictures.
Somehow I wonder one day I'll be 150-ish and still unhappy with myself.

It's sounds logically ridiculous, but that's it.


Rainy: pictures often don't do us justice. the lighting can make all the difference sometimes. Pictures also flatten everything out and distort the image to some degree.
I have photos from before I lost weight though I was always hiding behind my children on them. Now even though I've lost 51 pounds I just can't see enough difference in the before and after photos. I've got better photos now though to compare to later so hopefully I will see bigger changes soon.