Lisa,
I hear you on never having a relationship. The longest one I've had before now was an on-again off-again thing with this guys who treated me like crap and who I didn't even really like. I wouldn't even consider him to really be a boyfreind - case in point nothing for valentine's day or birthday. That was probably 4 years ago. Any other relationships I've ever had were just flings if you know what I mean
I've been dating this guy for about a month, and to be honest I'm scared to death because I just don't know how to be in a relationship. I keep waiting for my life to go back to normal. I also find myself trying to focus on the things that I think won't make it work - like how he's not the most attractive guy around, how he doesn't exercise or eat right, and his crazy lifestyle (bartender), instead of thinking about how he's probably the nicest guy I've ever met and pretty much treats me like a princess (so he's smart too

). I guess what I'm trying to say in this long rambling is that I thought I'd never be in a relationship either, and it's not such an easy thing when you finally get there.
But Jen, I also loved being single! I was never one of those people who felt like they NEEDED a boyfriend to feel worthy. Yes, sometimes it's hard when you're at a wedding or valentine's day...but I honestly don't know what to do with myself at a bar when it's not scoping out the guys
