In august 2008, I was on a trip to Vegas with my family. I was looking at myself in the mirror, totally disgusted. So I tried to lose weight. For 3 months I pretty much ate nothing but chicken, rice, slim fast, fruit and water. Lost 30 lbs. Then I decided to reward myself. Long story short, I'm back up 15 pounds.
I'm 16 and 200 lbs. People tell me I'm "too young" to diet. So, what...? You want me to do nothing untill I'm "old enough" to diet? Can you imagine how much worse I'll have gotten? I don't want to diet. I want to eat healthy. But yeah, I'm young. I don't know HOW to eat healthy, my family is unwilling to give up their fast food 3 times a day, sedentary lifestyle and so I'm stuck. I feel thinner than I am, so every time I look at myself I just get so discouraged along with the frequent remarks about my age. I'm an independant study student, so I don't really have anything to make me get up and exercise. I ask my parents every night to go on a walk with me and get "I don't feel like it." "I'm too tired." "We'll go tomorrow." But we don't. I'd go on my own but our neighborhood isn't a safe place for a teenage girl to be walking alone =/
A few nights ago I ordered myself a few Jillian Michaels's DVD's after seeing the review about them giving you a good kick in the pants. I need that as far as exercising goes. But I'm still clueless as to how I'm supposed to be eating.
I'm so lost and confused and frustrated, but I really want to do this. I want to feel pretty and confident. I've NEVER felt that way. Ever.




