So yesterday I held this itty bitty teeny tiny 8 pound baby girl.......

All I could think was I want one but I cant!

I had an uber difficult delivery with DS that left me infected and a mess of issues. I have a chronic auto immune disease too.
Getting pregnant again for me is risky but delivering at this weight is deadly.
So, yesterday while holding my cousins new baby girl all I could think was if I were thinner Id risk it.

So, today Im on plan. Not for a new baby, not for my husband or my son, BUT because *I* want to not ever let my weight control what I can or can not have out of life.


Soooo many things I want out of life are controlled/limited/stopped by my weight. Im tired of it!

I want my mojo back! Thanks to the OP of that thread by the way!

I want to run up and down the hill with my son without being winded.

I want to stop being in pain every day which may never happen given my disease but Im sure taking a 100lbs off my body wouldnt hurt the cause.

Ive been slacking a LOT lately. Its done. Its time. Im ready!

Its frustrating because I can be 100% on plan and only lose 1.2 lbs in a month but thats ok if I keep at it I will be healthier and stronger and eventualy thinner.

I guess I just needed to commit my thoughts in writing.

Brilliant.

With that attitude, you Will do it.

Thank you!!

Rock on sister! We can do this!

Any chance you can hold this baby on a regular basis for motivation? One day you will have to tell this little girl how she helped you take control of your life.

I love your post! You have a really great attitude I wish you lots of luck. You can do it!

I so know what you mean. My baby niece and nephew give me such motivation everytime I see them. I want to have a baby of my own so so badly. But I know that I need to sort out my life and get healthy before I can try.

Hey keep posting back here! I love your motivation!

~ tea

Thanks everyone! Its been a bumpy week! Lots of ups and downs.

Dont get me wrong my son is a lot motivation and I love him dearly but sometimes it takes seeing something you CANT have to make it click. And I may never have another baby even if I lose the weight. But Im so tired of it being an excuse for everything and being an obstacle for every part of my life.


I have such emotional eating issues its hard to get past them but I need to stay motivated!

I know how you feel as far as the emo eating goes. Even men go through it! Keep rocking on though!

i have said it before but i will say it again-- it never ceases to amaze me what gets a person going again or starts a person out. it seems to me to be the smallest things. for me it was when DH and i where dating and we would go for walks in between our classes and the weight loss was just a "side effect" at the time. well i started getting compliments and i started to feel better about myself.