Trying to come up with a Title is hard;-)
Hmm, lets see, I'm over 40, I won't let that deter me, I may have to work harder. I did not gain weight because of my age, I gained weight through depression and making eating my hobby.
I was always on the slim side, then..........
My depression for most part is in check. I actually like myself the way I am, sure it causes some shame, but over-all, I feel more grown up.... Yeah, yeah, sounds strange, maybe I feel safer.
I'm about 238, would say 240 but two pounds plays with the mind.
I lost 60 pounds last year, presto, I had an emotional buster, and started eating again, But, or or BUTT, I have been and am being treated for depression, makes all the difference in the world.
I do have a a sense of humor, can be sarcastic, but it's all in fun.
I don't want to lose weight for any reason, although there is some spite that may carry me through;-) I want a life long change, I'm not about to eat carrots, diet food for the rest of my life, more like, eat what I want until I'm full, not stuffed, while cutting down on the junk.
It's so hard, if I go out "Maybe I can eat here there" it's like, when I go out, my life is centered around eating.......This has to change and, it's habit, but a hard habit to break and not always think about.
So, I have an eating disorder, binging, compulsive it IS still something I have to break in order to be healthy..............
I also have a younger child, when she wants to play, I can't move as I would like to, read, can't run;-)
And, that concludes this novel.
