so just getting off the phone with my fiance crying to him because i feel "fat and disgusting" after just having my baby girl 2 months 3 weeks ago- i decided to wipe the tears off of the keyboard and do something about it! ive just recently started the BC Mirena and i think now would be a great time to change my eating habits- so i can nip any weight GAIN right in the bud.

so i decided to look at and lay out my "issues" with food/diets/weight loss etc, and then try to seek some support or ideas or ANYTHING to remedy them... so here goes.....

*I like foods that are fast. easy to make, not alot of cooking involved (new baby over here lol)

*Im very stubborn and happen to have some sort of bratty mentality that its not fair that i have to watch what i eat- or not eat what i really want to, and other people just scarf down big macs daily and look fantastic.

*i attribute happiness to being thin. Since i can remember my mother has had bulimia and poor self image. shes always seemed to be happiest when thin and i guess i picked that up somewhere along the way.

*i need things to be instantaneous. Im afraid when i decide on a plan to stick to- if it doesnt show me quick results i will fall off the band wagon. or jump off . well 26 days makes a habit right?! problem is i rarely can get that far... with anything.

*Ive gotten lazy. I'll find any excuse NOT to exercise. and thats sad because i used to dance 7 days a week, almost 6 hours a day.

* i love fast food. I mean love. its everything i can need. its fast. its good. its close. its cheap. how do i get out of THAT??

* im afraid of failing. i was on weight watchers about 4 years ago and i lost 70lbs. i was down to 138... i still have my book ...but somehow im now 203lbs and feel the worst ive ever felt.

* i dont like anyone to know im this self conscious. its semi easy for me to let people that i dont know (& who are going through similar) how i feel about my body or dieting, but when it comes to family and friends, i get extremely embarrassed to admit that im dieting at all. or that i want to lose weight. i for some reason feel i have to uphold this image that i dont care what people think of me, and i dont care how fat i am. I actually believe ive been heard saying "i dont care ive enjoyed how every pound tasted". awful.

ugh. not even everything, i dont believe... but i think little goals are where to start...... so thats where im starting. mushing through THAT^ garbage.

so im here.

i dont know what im looking for, i dont know what i want- NO CLUE what im going to do....

i just want change.

i want to be happy with me. for the first time in my entire life- i'd like to REALLY FEEL as beautiful as i pretend to feel.

i want a ticker... and i want it to read great numbers and inspire someone else to join this forum just as all the numbers i read got me to.



so heres to a new beginning......

Aw,

I enjoyed reading that. I can relate to ALL of it!

I love fast food. For all the reasons you've posted. I have a hard time saying NO. I am lazy, a procrastinator, all those bad things.

BUT...I haven't had fast food in two weeks!!! So you CAN do it. I dont really like cooking, but I just had to MAKE myself do it. Its the only way you can eat right/healthy.

Ive made a lot of diet changes and I am seeing slow results, but results none the less.

So you are not alone.

I too, struggle with my self image. Even at my current weight... but its something we have to learn to get over.

So, again to you! And thank you for sharing!

I so understand! Baby weight is so hard to loose. Good luck. I think you will get losts of great support from this sight.

Welcome to 3fc!! Surf around and settle in! We have subforums based on age, eating plan, exercise and more! I'm glad you're here!!!

You have done such a great job identifying your triggers. I'll tell ya, that fast food thing got me too. But if we eat like everyone else, we will look like everyone else, and with the rising obesity rate in the US, I DON"T want to look like everyone else. And I think you don't either!

One of our wise women on here says that when you say no to junk, think about it as saying yes to a healthier you.

thanks to you guys who posted back i appreciate the support. well, in my absence (off working and raising a wee one) i quit my job, stopped breastfeeding and gained 30lbs. what the crap. so i hit my marshmellow and big mac bottom, and im back. gave up the bratty, and the fast food, and went back to trusty ol' weight watchers! on it since 10/07/09 and lost 7 LBS ALREADY!!!! um, woot! its just the jumpstart i need to keep up with it!! i hope to see you ladies throughout our journey's!

Welcome to 3FC and good luck with your goals.

Hugs
Michelle

Congratulations on coming back and wanting to try again! I think we can all identify with falling off the wagon, giving up & then coming back around and wanting to try again. The important thing is that you're back and already making progress towards your goal, yay! Sounds like you're off to a great start, good luck!

keep up the great work! when reading your original post.. i just kept shaking my head up and down... cuz i am the sameee way! I just wanna close my eyes and wish myself thin.. but thats not working.. lol.. I am glad you chose to come back i am new here, so its really cool to meet new ladies with the same thinking as i have/had

joan! you've lost so much weight in 11 weeks?!?!?! thats incredible!

thanks to all of you for the welcome-backs!! no stinkin thinkin for meee!!! we're all going to be the thinnie-mini's we want to be if we just keep on a truckin!!!