Ok, so I posted in mini goal section that it has been 4 weeks since I have medicated myself with food. I had a panic attack one night, sat down to a table full of food and ate till I was sick. Well, I was going along really good till today, I just received an offer asking me to come in for a job interview tomorrow. Now I am freaking out, I haven't been on a job interview in 13yrs. I have been a Stay at home wife and mom for 9yrs except for a short stint trying to help out a friend with her spa equipment business. Now all of a sudden, I want to eat, and I want to eat a lot. I have only had breakfast and lunch(657cal total), and I really don't have a lot here to eat at home anyways so that's a good thing but I need to go grocery shopping for dinner tonight and I don't know if I can remain in control. Ok, time to start guzzling water.
You are strong and you can do it. I know you can. You already lost those 20lbs don't let these nerves take control. You are in control!!!
If it helps I am having a heck of a day myself. My dog was sick last night. The second night in three nights. She was vomitting and would not sleep. So I have been up since 3 AM!! Due to the vet appt I only got in a 20 minute workout and I like to do at least an hour. I was gonna do more when home from the vet but I am exhausted. I would rather sit on the couch and graze and sleep and graze some more. (just a little note - my dogs are like my kids since I have no kids)
I hate these bumpy roads. But I think if we can stick it out we will find some nice new blacktop to drive on! I am picturing the movie Cars right now - gotta love it!
Is there anything I can do to help calm your nerves. We can talk job interviews if you want or change the subject completly. Do you have something that you can do for 'you' to take up some time and remove these cravings?
I hate panic attacks. I don't randomly have them, they are situational. I usually avoid situations where I know I will have one but that really limits what I do in life. Like the one 4 weeks ago, it was when I had a house full of people. I knew it might happen but needed to go out side my comfort zone.
Well I all I ate was a South Beach Diet snack bar, 140cals, not to bad. I have guzzled water and had a cup of coffee with my husband. I waited till he got home to go to the store so that kept me from raiding the candy section...lol My food scale broke and he knew I was upset about that the other day, so this afternoon when I mentioned that I was bummed about not being able to measure the veggies in the soup I am making, he took me to target to buy a new scale. That made me happy and distracted me a bit. I makes me happy to weigh my food, weird huh....lol I like knowing my calories.Even if I go over my limit that I have set for myself, at least I did it full of knowledge.
I feel your pain. I am a victim to situational panic attacks too and it's horrible. I think it's ironic that I read your post today because just this afternoon I had my first panic attack in months during a meeting. I hate them and they are embarrassing for me.
Hmmm...Interview advice. They say to put a penny in your shoe to help you remember to smile. Everytime you feel the penny...smile. I tried it once and it worked.
GREAT! I am so glad you made it thru. I knew you could do it! I am also very happy for you that your husband was so kind to buy that food scale. I totally understand how you feel about having to do certian things a certain way. I am like that too!
If you haven't had that interview yet try goggling 'interview tips'. I did and it came up with a lot. If anything try that penny tip. I like that one. I tend to forget to smile at those things.
I hope you ankle is okay. I sprained mine really bad in September I couldn't even drive my vehicle for a week cause I have a manual transmision. My husband reluctantly had to switch with me for a week. I also know how those things can hinder all you movement so I hope you are okay. I felt like I hobbled around for a month.
SkinnyGirlInside , 03-03-2009 05:28 PM
kittycat40 , 03-04-2009 10:56 AM
