****mini to medium rant- feel free to skip****

it's oh so easy to be a happy person- it's just my nature. i'm that girl that's fun and funny and the life of the party. you know that girl that runs around the bar talking to people she doesn't know just to make some new friends? that's totally me. i'm a pretty good friend too i think. i can be positive and supportive but also be the bad guy when somebody really needs it. so i pretty much have ME under control. i'm happy with me and don't make excuses for who i am.

you're looking for a point? the point is, it gets harder and harder to remember i'm that girl when i get down on myself. i try not to but sometimes it's inevitable. today was weigh in day. i KNEW i messed up. big or small i messed up probably 4 out of the last 7 days. i knew weigh in day was coming and i knew i was almost at goal but it happened. and i made peace with it. one week isn't going to stop me for the rest of my life, i know that. so i was just hoping for no GAIN this week. that would have REALLY pissed me off.

so i hop on the scale this morning and i was 131.6... no need to do the math, i lost .6 lbs. i LOST! but instead of that happy me looking back at me my brain was thinking *&^!!*&^)##^!&!!! YOU WERE ALMOST THERE!! AND YOU BLEW IT!!!! so im mad today. not mad at the loss- i mean, duh- i LOST and a loss is a loss is a loss. i'm mad at myself for being so hardheaded. i know i'm doing well. every single day i can look at myself in the mirror and feel super good. i look GOOD! but not making goal should not be this big of a deal. it just shouldn't. it's one week out of the rest of my life and i need to stop being so critical.

so i guess i'm mad because i'm usually not such a b**** to anybody, including me. and i don't even have a reason to be down on myself.

devil scale... you momentarily killed my good mood. but my rant is out and i'm already feeling much better...

I get that way too. Sometimes I know I"ll be doing really well but I won't have lost as much as i'd hoped (or worse, I gain for xyz reason...I'm a daily weigher) and I just want to scream. Forget that I"ve already lost 71 lbs, I only lost .2 lbs in the last day!

*eyeroll* I'm quite ridiculous sometimes. DH says I have to start reining that in or he might start thinking I have a problem lol.

Stop being so down on yourself, Your elbows look hot!!! Hehe. Success is getting back up on the horse one more time than you fell off. I'm glad you're feeling better. You're so close to goal! I'm jealous!!!

corazonas,

I have absolutely had similar experiences to yours. I will stay on plan and exercise and everything for 2-3 weeks with no loss. Then I go off plan for a day or two and not exercise because it is icy or hubby is out of town or whatever. I get on the scale and have a loss and sometimes a substantial one--three pounds or something in a week.

I don't know why--just seems to be the way it works for me. You are still headed in the right direction and having so much success. Pat yourself on the back! You are doing great. I know you will hit goal any day now for certain. I can't wait until I do!

Girl you are sooo close to hitting goal...it will come eventually and just think to yourself that this is a life change not a weekly change. We are all working so hard to get to where we want to be but the hardest part is staying there because you dont have that goal to keep truckin forward for!

Keep your head up and take some pictures so we can all whistle at you

I think we've all felt this way. I would guess the hardest part is because you are SO close to goal and you just want to be there. BUT... you WILL get there Next week you'll be celebrating GOAL for sure

Fantastic job on losing so much already!

Corazonas,
You have to be as positive to yourself as you are to all of us!!!! I'm always so impressed with your cheerful attitude and your kindness in all of the messages you write. So now you have to write one to you. You know what you would say if one of us wrote that in: You're so close to goal and you've done such an awesome job. I'm proud of you for only letting it kill that good mood momentarily, and now you can look back and have that good mood again when you see all that hard work you've done.
-Priscilla

Don't be so down on yourself- you are almost there

Don't be so hard on yourself. Just look how far you have come and how soooo close you are. At least it didn't go in the opposite direction!! You will be there in no time!! Congrats on your loss so far and good luck reaching your goal!!

thanks a million guys! i think i'm over it now. was just frustrated over nothing. i know i'm so close and i guess that's why i was mad that i KNEW i was eating stuff i shouldn't have and KNEW i wasn't going to hit goal before it happened. so even losing that .6 really wasn't a victory because it wasn't "enough".

but im gonna go have my vegetable soup while hubby eats his chicken and hang out with him and i'm feeling much better

next weigh in- i'm coming for ya!